Dumpsville
Capricorn By Rick Levine
You might not be comfortable with the current emotional turmoil and, unfortunately, nothing you do seems to calm the turbulence. You are better off now to let go and ride the rough waves instead of trying to control your direction. Thankfully, the anxiety begins to dissipate once you concentrate on maintaining balance, rather than trying to manage all the variables in your environment at once.
Yeah, pretty much already started doing that. It's going ok, work today was almost pretty good... but then something triggers me and I pretty much lose it :(. I know what I want, I can't have it. I know what I need, and I have to borrow to get it. I'm stuck and lonely and sad, and it's all just part of being a growed up. Getting caught up in the depressive cycle makes it that much harder to see the silver lining, when all I can focus on right now are those angry, grey, rolling storm clouds.
Suck.
We were really slow at work tonight, so I got to do a bunch of level 1 training stuffs. This was good. But we were SO slow that I got sent home early. Considering I already didn't work Sunday and I don't have PTO yet, I'm basically screwed. I was able to stretch it out, so I only left an hour early, but still, that's now 11 hours that I'm going to be short on this next check. BIG time badness. Meh. Plus I'm feeling sicker and sicker, with the exhaustion and extreme stuffed up nose kicking in today. It's just badness all around.
It did snow, a pretty decent amount today, and while technically driving in it is bad, the roads are all ok and it's pretty and glittery and very nice snow. Fluffy soft white. So there is that.
I'm off to wallow a little more in misery, then maybe read a few comics before bed. Yay.
You might not be comfortable with the current emotional turmoil and, unfortunately, nothing you do seems to calm the turbulence. You are better off now to let go and ride the rough waves instead of trying to control your direction. Thankfully, the anxiety begins to dissipate once you concentrate on maintaining balance, rather than trying to manage all the variables in your environment at once.
Yeah, pretty much already started doing that. It's going ok, work today was almost pretty good... but then something triggers me and I pretty much lose it :(. I know what I want, I can't have it. I know what I need, and I have to borrow to get it. I'm stuck and lonely and sad, and it's all just part of being a growed up. Getting caught up in the depressive cycle makes it that much harder to see the silver lining, when all I can focus on right now are those angry, grey, rolling storm clouds.
Suck.
We were really slow at work tonight, so I got to do a bunch of level 1 training stuffs. This was good. But we were SO slow that I got sent home early. Considering I already didn't work Sunday and I don't have PTO yet, I'm basically screwed. I was able to stretch it out, so I only left an hour early, but still, that's now 11 hours that I'm going to be short on this next check. BIG time badness. Meh. Plus I'm feeling sicker and sicker, with the exhaustion and extreme stuffed up nose kicking in today. It's just badness all around.
It did snow, a pretty decent amount today, and while technically driving in it is bad, the roads are all ok and it's pretty and glittery and very nice snow. Fluffy soft white. So there is that.
I'm off to wallow a little more in misery, then maybe read a few comics before bed. Yay.