Mar 09, 2005 23:02
So i have decided that i have nothing positive in my life right now. This week has been the craziest week of my life, close to it anyway. Friday i had a test, Monday a Speech, Tuesday had 2 3 page papers due, Wensday i had 2 tests, Tomorrow I have a three page paper due, and friday i have another test. On top of that i am getting ready for a spring break that i really don't want to attend. I am going to Southern Utah for some hiking and canoeing... I was talked into it when i really didn't want to go, now i got roped not only into driving, spending money i don't have, but it seems i am also the center for dispute.. Whatever fuck you guys... this trip is going to be hell, i know i am gonna snap hardcore... i love how with my "friends" i am ALWAYS left out of the decison makings, always nominated for things i don't care to do.... Understand that i am not like you guys and i will never be, i am my own person and your all the same, so fuck you too. I have felt like i have been drifting away from them for a long time now, and its really offical... they are all about trying to be something they have always wanted to be, which is definatly somthing very respectable, but i am a person who grows and adapts to my enviroment, and you are hindering me from a potential that I don't quiet understand. Try being objective for once in your life assholes... I don't like to get up and do things out of nowhere anymore, i have a job that takes alot of time and energy out of me, i am in school and i never study enough, instead i am persuaded by you all to do something i don't need to be doing, no matter if i want to or not. so call me the cliche's like pussy or sandbox and i will stare at you with my head High adn tell you to fuck off... I need to get the fuck out of this place and start the fuck over... maybe i will join the marines and die...
P.S. Sorry my first post in almost a mounth is all negative... i just hate everone including myself latly.