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Update on my life for starters...
It has been a crazy couple of weeks.
Went to Wisconsin to visit the family,
was great to see everyone.
My uncle mike would wake me up at 9 with a beer and tell me he has been drinking for two hours and needs someone to drink with... i guess i was that "one" for 3 days.
Came back to go riding for a day, was a good time, i wrecked myself though.
Then to Yonder Mountain and Keller-Williams... one word, awesome.
Back up to school, back to a job with nothing to do... In the last two days i have read two books and i am on my third... At least i was productive.
Here is my Nostalgia...
Remember when everything was so simple, complicated at the time, but nothing compared to now.
I always have a yearning for something unseen by my eyes, but denounced to my heart.
I spin around in this vortex of emotions.
It turns in my mind until my eyes start to blur and i almost fall over.
I have to shack myself out of the whirlwind inside my head,
i am scared of what will come if i don't... what i will become.
The thoughts of yesterday consume my every being, my past hope for a future shattered in a glimpse of her soul.
The Nostalgia drives me, sometimes onward, but always upward.
The burning inside changes to an ice cold sphere constantly growing in size.
Why i feel this way i never know, why i can't control my actions and just stop looking, i don't know..
If i could just accept my fate, i would inevitably achieve my goal,
but one player does not make a team, and theres always more then one way to win, no matter how much work, and how much understanding.
This game of life and love thickens the freezing sphere, but the fire is just on the bank of the other side of the river styx.
I see the flame burning brighter everyday, but the people i have pushed away are beaconing me to come to them. They say "welcome brother, walk with us toward your fate".
It has been a crazy couple of weeks.
Went to Wisconsin to visit the family,
was great to see everyone.
My uncle mike would wake me up at 9 with a beer and tell me he has been drinking for two hours and needs someone to drink with... i guess i was that "one" for 3 days.
Came back to go riding for a day, was a good time, i wrecked myself though.
Then to Yonder Mountain and Keller-Williams... one word, awesome.
Back up to school, back to a job with nothing to do... In the last two days i have read two books and i am on my third... At least i was productive.
Here is my Nostalgia...
Remember when everything was so simple, complicated at the time, but nothing compared to now.
I always have a yearning for something unseen by my eyes, but denounced to my heart.
I spin around in this vortex of emotions.
It turns in my mind until my eyes start to blur and i almost fall over.
I have to shack myself out of the whirlwind inside my head,
i am scared of what will come if i don't... what i will become.
The thoughts of yesterday consume my every being, my past hope for a future shattered in a glimpse of her soul.
The Nostalgia drives me, sometimes onward, but always upward.
The burning inside changes to an ice cold sphere constantly growing in size.
Why i feel this way i never know, why i can't control my actions and just stop looking, i don't know..
If i could just accept my fate, i would inevitably achieve my goal,
but one player does not make a team, and theres always more then one way to win, no matter how much work, and how much understanding.
This game of life and love thickens the freezing sphere, but the fire is just on the bank of the other side of the river styx.
I see the flame burning brighter everyday, but the people i have pushed away are beaconing me to come to them. They say "welcome brother, walk with us toward your fate".