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It's funny how I can seem to make people mad with me because I don't want them to get hurt. And normaly I feel like an ass after it happens. I guess it is my fault, maybe I just shouldn't care so much sometimes. I'm just too protective of my friends, and I guess I view loyalty far different than most.
I also don't just view the past as what happened, but also an indicator of what might happen in the future. That's probably why I hold grudges longer than most. Because it put a little indicator on my mental file about it. Basicaly saying that if it happened once, it most likely won't dissapear. Even if people sware up and down that it has changed, it very rarely has. Just they got a bit better at hiding it.
Changing a personality (mostly talking about your own personality here) is about as hard as getting off an addiction as far as I can tell. Sure, a lot of people can kick something about themselves out for a few days, but when a month or two rolls around, are they the same as before or have they changed? And the new characteristics that they take on when they change becomes their new 'addiction' and it'll be just as hard to change them again if that becomes their 'true self'.
But in the end, what more is this than the rambelings of a daft kid.
In other news, my mother and pete got me a gift for my birthday finally. It's really awesome, it's a dragon table. It's like two dragons going around a castle tower, with fire and stuffs and a glass table surface that screws into the top of the tower. It's really cool, but I'm afraid to break it. It's about the size of a night stand. (2-3 ft tall, 2-3 ft diameter)
-Corin
I also don't just view the past as what happened, but also an indicator of what might happen in the future. That's probably why I hold grudges longer than most. Because it put a little indicator on my mental file about it. Basicaly saying that if it happened once, it most likely won't dissapear. Even if people sware up and down that it has changed, it very rarely has. Just they got a bit better at hiding it.
Changing a personality (mostly talking about your own personality here) is about as hard as getting off an addiction as far as I can tell. Sure, a lot of people can kick something about themselves out for a few days, but when a month or two rolls around, are they the same as before or have they changed? And the new characteristics that they take on when they change becomes their new 'addiction' and it'll be just as hard to change them again if that becomes their 'true self'.
But in the end, what more is this than the rambelings of a daft kid.
In other news, my mother and pete got me a gift for my birthday finally. It's really awesome, it's a dragon table. It's like two dragons going around a castle tower, with fire and stuffs and a glass table surface that screws into the top of the tower. It's really cool, but I'm afraid to break it. It's about the size of a night stand. (2-3 ft tall, 2-3 ft diameter)
-Corin