wow...
i had one of those almost famous moments tonight...
you know the scene where the kid is watching stillwater right from the side of the stage, i got to do that...
life of agony on stage and i'm standing on the side where all the girlfriends/wives/technical people are, that close. granted starland ballroom is a tiny place and its not that hard of a concept to pull off, its still amazing. rob made friends with the second opening act, five year stare, quite a cool band. we got to spend like half the show hanging out with them and meeting members of BLOODSIMPLE!!!! they were amazing too. we were talking to john from five year stare and matt and i hear what if i lost it playing in the background, we just looked at each other and took off. rob didn't really care about bloodsimple, but me and matt were giddy, or at least i was. what if i lost it and running from nothing hold a lot of meaning for me. "i can't seem to rest with a fucking pain in my chest, been running from nothing" that holds true for the last three weeks of my life. "how many times have you been mistreated, how many times have you been mislead? they brought these nightmares to life, all we wanted was to be respected, learned our lessons, don't you ever forget" that means a lot to me too. we were talking throughout brand new sin, but loa just took over. matt had me everywhere before we ended up on the side of the stage. more lyrics to live by their meanings. "but the quicker that things unfold, the quicker that they subside" a lot may happen at once, but then its over a whole lot quicker and i just have to keep that in mind.
what else tonight? oh yes, being recognized as a DJ, "hey, you don't have to turn around to show me your name, i know who you are." quite cool. then again it happened to matt by regular people and famous people alike all night so my one moment of glory was heavily overshadowed, but its ok, i won the double shot contest this morning.
as far as real life, as my surrealist moment from this concert fizzles out, i'm going to take sean's advice and just go for things and not hold back, its just a matter of which direction i do this in...
i could go the safe way and not be hurt by the rejection
-or-
i could go the more difficult path and probably get hurt, but then again, i felt the connection there all night tonight. either that or i look like that much of a fragile doll that i need that much protection
i think my thoughts just got twisted into bunches that don't like me...time for some sleepies
you know the scene where the kid is watching stillwater right from the side of the stage, i got to do that...
life of agony on stage and i'm standing on the side where all the girlfriends/wives/technical people are, that close. granted starland ballroom is a tiny place and its not that hard of a concept to pull off, its still amazing. rob made friends with the second opening act, five year stare, quite a cool band. we got to spend like half the show hanging out with them and meeting members of BLOODSIMPLE!!!! they were amazing too. we were talking to john from five year stare and matt and i hear what if i lost it playing in the background, we just looked at each other and took off. rob didn't really care about bloodsimple, but me and matt were giddy, or at least i was. what if i lost it and running from nothing hold a lot of meaning for me. "i can't seem to rest with a fucking pain in my chest, been running from nothing" that holds true for the last three weeks of my life. "how many times have you been mistreated, how many times have you been mislead? they brought these nightmares to life, all we wanted was to be respected, learned our lessons, don't you ever forget" that means a lot to me too. we were talking throughout brand new sin, but loa just took over. matt had me everywhere before we ended up on the side of the stage. more lyrics to live by their meanings. "but the quicker that things unfold, the quicker that they subside" a lot may happen at once, but then its over a whole lot quicker and i just have to keep that in mind.
what else tonight? oh yes, being recognized as a DJ, "hey, you don't have to turn around to show me your name, i know who you are." quite cool. then again it happened to matt by regular people and famous people alike all night so my one moment of glory was heavily overshadowed, but its ok, i won the double shot contest this morning.
as far as real life, as my surrealist moment from this concert fizzles out, i'm going to take sean's advice and just go for things and not hold back, its just a matter of which direction i do this in...
i could go the safe way and not be hurt by the rejection
-or-
i could go the more difficult path and probably get hurt, but then again, i felt the connection there all night tonight. either that or i look like that much of a fragile doll that i need that much protection
i think my thoughts just got twisted into bunches that don't like me...time for some sleepies