well fuck
yeah so my best friend/photographer is gone.
she's in california now.
i feel sick.
i'm so proud of her though, god i couldn't be more proud. ahh see there it goes again. i've been crying constantly. and it sucks. a whole lot. but i know she will succeed and for that, any price or distance is worth it.
so christmas sucked. my mom was here and she ate all of my xanax that i'd been stockpiling up to take when she got here so that i wouldn't end up screaming at her.
well, i did anyways.
fuck her. what did i do to deserve such a terrible mother? and father too while i'm at it?
i spent xmas day in the bed because my hormone shot made me nauseas (how the fuck do you spell that, guys?) and i was puking everywhere. ew. puking christmas. fucking gross. i got a random call from brandon benge- haven't heard from the nugga in forever.
i'm going to new orleans for my 21st birthday to stay with my cousins who are fucking fun as hell. i'm so excited. don't think i'll be doing any drinking- i don't know. maybe i'll have like one margarita or something just to mark the occasion, but... nothing more than that.
tonight i'm going to visit jae in virginia beach.
i fucking hate livejournal. i don't find it at all even remotely interesting anymore.
bah fucking humbug, bitches.
she's in california now.
i feel sick.
i'm so proud of her though, god i couldn't be more proud. ahh see there it goes again. i've been crying constantly. and it sucks. a whole lot. but i know she will succeed and for that, any price or distance is worth it.
so christmas sucked. my mom was here and she ate all of my xanax that i'd been stockpiling up to take when she got here so that i wouldn't end up screaming at her.
well, i did anyways.
fuck her. what did i do to deserve such a terrible mother? and father too while i'm at it?
i spent xmas day in the bed because my hormone shot made me nauseas (how the fuck do you spell that, guys?) and i was puking everywhere. ew. puking christmas. fucking gross. i got a random call from brandon benge- haven't heard from the nugga in forever.
i'm going to new orleans for my 21st birthday to stay with my cousins who are fucking fun as hell. i'm so excited. don't think i'll be doing any drinking- i don't know. maybe i'll have like one margarita or something just to mark the occasion, but... nothing more than that.
tonight i'm going to visit jae in virginia beach.
i fucking hate livejournal. i don't find it at all even remotely interesting anymore.
bah fucking humbug, bitches.