September two zero
Today my heart hurts.
I am put in an awkward spot and I don't like it.
I can't say that I feel uncomfortable, because things will get weird and I can't trust that things will side with me.
I wanted to cry today. I'm better, well, getting better...and yet I am not where I want to be. I was so happy when I got out of class I called Cammie and my mother and told them how excited I was for my classes and all tat good stuff, then got to see Ashley and was so happy,
then at the end of the day
I just got really depressed and wanted to cry. I feel like something is missing. I am also really stressed about bills right now because I didn't work for a whole week....so I don't know how that is going to effect me on my paycheck :(
Christmas is my favorite time of the year cuz I get an excuse to give to ppl, and I probably will have barely any money to get my parents stuff. I'm use to spending like 300 bucks on each of them....this year barely anything? that sucks.
Life gets so hard sometimes, I fucked up and I'm so pissed about my mistakes. FUCK I wish I had never speed, gr fuck gr!
I just found the necklace Justin gave me a long time ago and I started crying...that was only thing he ever really gave me. psh whatever.
I just want tonight to be over...but then again I am not looking forward to this week, all I want to do it sleep for some stupid reason.
I am put in an awkward spot and I don't like it.
I can't say that I feel uncomfortable, because things will get weird and I can't trust that things will side with me.
I wanted to cry today. I'm better, well, getting better...and yet I am not where I want to be. I was so happy when I got out of class I called Cammie and my mother and told them how excited I was for my classes and all tat good stuff, then got to see Ashley and was so happy,
then at the end of the day
I just got really depressed and wanted to cry. I feel like something is missing. I am also really stressed about bills right now because I didn't work for a whole week....so I don't know how that is going to effect me on my paycheck :(
Christmas is my favorite time of the year cuz I get an excuse to give to ppl, and I probably will have barely any money to get my parents stuff. I'm use to spending like 300 bucks on each of them....this year barely anything? that sucks.
Life gets so hard sometimes, I fucked up and I'm so pissed about my mistakes. FUCK I wish I had never speed, gr fuck gr!
I just found the necklace Justin gave me a long time ago and I started crying...that was only thing he ever really gave me. psh whatever.
I just want tonight to be over...but then again I am not looking forward to this week, all I want to do it sleep for some stupid reason.