Falling down a black hole

[xangelart420x]

I feel as though iam falling into a back hole that i cant dig myself out of.My life has been turned up side down these past couple of weeks.I have been at my new job for two weeks and i hate it it sucks,the only goods parts are when i get visiters or visiter rather.i miis my friends at hannaford like crazy.I get home from work at 3am and even then i cant fall asleep i dont know why but my head is filled with all these thought i cant seem to make any since out of.When i sit alone i feel like iam going crazy cause all i want is to have someone there with me talking to me or even just there being quite even.I want my life back,i want to be able to enjoy every second of it but i cant my head wont let me.I want to go out and do things with my friends and be a normal 20 year old girl but i cant my head wont let me,i want to be happy being me but i cant my head wont let me.i keep thinking to myself who's going to caught me when i fall theres nobody there to help pick me back up again.I look around at my friends and even strangers and i see that there happy,i only feel happy when i with certain people and even then my head is telling me that i cant be happy.Everything in my life has changed in one abrupt movement and i cant ever get it back,something things i miss about it and others i dont.But i sure miss being happy....Caught me when i fall help me pick up the peices.......

Ps.sorry thins makes no since but i had to get it all out some how and since its 430 in the morning nobody is awake.... goodnight