Watching Felicity
I was watching Felicity with Bonnie tonight and realizing two episodes in that though she does so much that would embarrass me, that is because she reminds me so much of myself. I sometimes might wish that I would have found a boy to stalk to college, and when I get in my really honest moods, sure, I probably would have told him. I did not do this of course, I followed my best friend to college and then when she moved on to brighter pastures I found my own way. It may be a bit rocky and I may have absolutely no idea what I am doing with my life, but I think that is okay, because I went to Mount Holyoke for me, and whatever comes of that should be for the best because I did it by my own initiative.
The side effect of the whole I went to Mount Holyoke thing means that I am not going to have my RA fall for me, and I am likely going to be much more focused on school than boys. I never was one of those girls who built their lives around guys anyway, though sometimes it feels like this is the perfect recipe for ending up alone forever. I guess it could happen that way, but I have an inexplicable better outlook. I think things are going to work out, and I don't know why. Maybe I have to think in the positive realm or else I will not be able to funtion, or maybe the rest of my life has worked out, even this crazy move to MA, and that is why I think it will work out.
So for my friends going away for the summer to places beyond the reaches of internet, have a beautiful and amazing summer. I am going to try to do the same.
The side effect of the whole I went to Mount Holyoke thing means that I am not going to have my RA fall for me, and I am likely going to be much more focused on school than boys. I never was one of those girls who built their lives around guys anyway, though sometimes it feels like this is the perfect recipe for ending up alone forever. I guess it could happen that way, but I have an inexplicable better outlook. I think things are going to work out, and I don't know why. Maybe I have to think in the positive realm or else I will not be able to funtion, or maybe the rest of my life has worked out, even this crazy move to MA, and that is why I think it will work out.
So for my friends going away for the summer to places beyond the reaches of internet, have a beautiful and amazing summer. I am going to try to do the same.