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Once upon a time there was a girl, she was never really pretty but she smiled a lot and she had freckles on her face and screwed up her nose when she thought hard. She was blessed with gifts of health and intelligence and this created in her a thirst for knowledge and a drive to discover Truth, and for many years this is how life continued. She smiled and thought and learned.
The little girl grew older and bad things happened to her. Bad things which meant she didn't smile as much anymore. She got by, and she still thought and still learned but she wasn't young anymore. Not many years passed before darkness came again, this time she didn't cry. The light didn't come back for a long time, and in that time she grew far older in her mind than her body would allow. She forgot how to love and how to trust, because the only person she could really rely on was herself.
For many years to come she searched to fill the void she was faced with. Perhaps Truth would make things right again, but truth never came. The girl never smiled on the inside and it became more and more obvious that she was never going to be good enough. Not for anyone. Time passed and life didn't change. People came and people left, people used her and each time she told herself she wouldn't get hurt again. Maybe some people are always meant to be used?
Often it would be sunny. There would be laughter and smiles and she would love and trust like other girls and boys. Sunshine fades. She learned that honesty would always be the most important thing. She learned that she could give love and loyalty but she could never give her forevers, and she could never make promises. Too many promises have been broken.
It came to the present. The first love was merely a mirage, wishful thinking. She realised more than anything that boys lie. The last boy she had loved with everything she was, she had given her heart, body and mind to him., She learned to trust again through him because he said he loved her, he said he was only really happy when he was with her - then he left her. It seemed she wasn't good enough. Again. She was half a person, she was disbelief, she was tears and pain but couldn't cry anymore. Everything she learned was backwards and upside down. Trust and love and lies.
I'm only me, I'm nothing special. I will never be a reason to live, I will never be a reason to stay. The only things I can ever offer are Truth and Love. Undying, unrequited, uncompromising. The door is always open to you to come and go as you please and I won't stand in your way. Just don't make me promises, then I won't have to believe you.
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The little girl grew older and bad things happened to her. Bad things which meant she didn't smile as much anymore. She got by, and she still thought and still learned but she wasn't young anymore. Not many years passed before darkness came again, this time she didn't cry. The light didn't come back for a long time, and in that time she grew far older in her mind than her body would allow. She forgot how to love and how to trust, because the only person she could really rely on was herself.
For many years to come she searched to fill the void she was faced with. Perhaps Truth would make things right again, but truth never came. The girl never smiled on the inside and it became more and more obvious that she was never going to be good enough. Not for anyone. Time passed and life didn't change. People came and people left, people used her and each time she told herself she wouldn't get hurt again. Maybe some people are always meant to be used?
Often it would be sunny. There would be laughter and smiles and she would love and trust like other girls and boys. Sunshine fades. She learned that honesty would always be the most important thing. She learned that she could give love and loyalty but she could never give her forevers, and she could never make promises. Too many promises have been broken.
It came to the present. The first love was merely a mirage, wishful thinking. She realised more than anything that boys lie. The last boy she had loved with everything she was, she had given her heart, body and mind to him., She learned to trust again through him because he said he loved her, he said he was only really happy when he was with her - then he left her. It seemed she wasn't good enough. Again. She was half a person, she was disbelief, she was tears and pain but couldn't cry anymore. Everything she learned was backwards and upside down. Trust and love and lies.
I'm only me, I'm nothing special. I will never be a reason to live, I will never be a reason to stay. The only things I can ever offer are Truth and Love. Undying, unrequited, uncompromising. The door is always open to you to come and go as you please and I won't stand in your way. Just don't make me promises, then I won't have to believe you.
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