hating myself
I don't really know what to write in here anymore.
I have so much to say, but I'm not one of those people who posts their whole life on the internet, ya know? I thought I was when I started it, but I'm sooo not. Its like when I'm talking to someone, I never let that person know whats really going on, like I don't know how to open up anymore. Everyone has to drag it out of me. I guess that can be a good thing. But its not so good when no ones trying to drag it out of me. And now, I have this journal and I can say whatever I want. I can be all moody, and over-emotional like everyone else who has one of these things. I can get it all out.
But I just can't. I don't know why.
I am such a mess.
I have so much to say, but I'm not one of those people who posts their whole life on the internet, ya know? I thought I was when I started it, but I'm sooo not. Its like when I'm talking to someone, I never let that person know whats really going on, like I don't know how to open up anymore. Everyone has to drag it out of me. I guess that can be a good thing. But its not so good when no ones trying to drag it out of me. And now, I have this journal and I can say whatever I want. I can be all moody, and over-emotional like everyone else who has one of these things. I can get it all out.
But I just can't. I don't know why.
I am such a mess.