Random Dao

Apr 22, 2009 23:34

Easy and difficult are abstractions of progress. The wise man doesn't live in abstraction.

I like that, it basically means whether or not you want to do something that needs to be done is irrelevant. It is something that needs to be done, so DO it. I've really been using this at work, dealing with the nastier claims sooner instead of putting them off.

I'm wondering if having ability means you're required to do more. Seems like the farther I go on my current track the longer the hours I work and the harder things become. If I'm really so bright, I should figure out a way to make things easier for myself.

However, I'm constant battling with the thought of not living up to my potential, whatever that may be. If I'm gifted and live the life of the average man, then if was a waste of my giftedness. In essence I want something difficult yet meaningful. I want challenge, I want purpose, I want true self-actualization.

I've satisfied the other parts of the pyramid - I've got shelter, food, friends, and self-confidence that borders on cockiness. What I'm missing is a challenge. A real challenge, not just keeping my apartment clean (I try to care, it just doesn't happen) or video games. Something that rocks me, brings me to my knees and commands me to rise and take more. But not just what someone else wants me to do. What I want me to do.

This desire won't go away, but I'll figure something out. Something miraculous, something risky, something that will change the world for the better.

Big wheels keep on turnin.

BEZ
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