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Sep 19, 2004 00:23

This past weekend Riky came back to Norwood. It was nice to see her. I spent Friday night with her and a portion of Saturday. I was suppose to spend tonight with her as well, but something happened and she just wanted to be alone. Which isn't that big of a deal, my only problem is that I don't know when the next time I am gonna see her is. I have it planned out that in November I am taking a miny vacation to see her but that is awhiles away. I'm sure that at point in october I will get to see her again, however it all seems far away. Myself and Riky are not going to have as much time or chances to be around each other and I'm just hoping that while we are together at those times, they can be at there best. I know people can't control their feelings, but I can still hope for the best. This is going to be an experience and a half for me, and for her. I miss her when she is gone, but at least with the distance it gives her more time to get settled down. I just wish she could find peace within herself at one point. I am guilty myself of getting flustered but usually only over finacial situations, but the good thing about that is I for the most part took care of those at least for now. So hopefully at least for a bit my money worries are solved. Which means I can drop a day at work while I am in school and worry more about school. Everything is good with my plan, except that I am not close to Riky. No matter what though I will finish my school here at least in my science degree and then when I am able to find a job in my carrer field I will consider moving out to be closer with her. But That wouldn't be for another year and half - 2 years. So first off a lot can change in that time as I've seen before already. So I am not promising myself anything. But if everything does work out though even with this distance thing for 2 years then I have to move closer to her because if we can go 2 years not seeing each other maybe but a few times a month then that is the real deal, well if we are happy still. If we are miserable people then I wouldn't realy see the point. I love her though I am planning on things working out but I am not expecting 100% I love this girl alot, more than I think alot of poeple give me credit for
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