Break up
I broke up with Miriam today. A lot of shit happened and everyone seems to know a different version of the damn story;I have only told a few people the true story and why I did what I did. She did the same shit that she did on Monday(our first breakup, she broke up with me but said it was a joke) You don't fucking say that it is over with your boyfriend then ignore them for the rest of the damn day and expect them to be fine with it. She did the same thing today while I was walking her to 7th period, so I just got pissed and we talked after school. She was really sad and called me mean, but she was the one that was mean. I guess it is better this way. Amador and Ryan told me that I should break up with her soon or it would be a lot harder to do later on when she gets more attached to me. I couldn't go on living the lie that I was; I never really loved her, and I only went out with her because I found out that she liked me and she kept asking my friends if I liked her and if I was ever gonna ask her out(of course my friends told me this) and I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I can't hurt people's feelings, it is really hard for me. That is why I didn't want to break up with her, I wanted her to break up with me. I hope she still talks to me, I don't want to lose her as a friend. I feel back to my normal self being single again and at my normal level of depression lol. I bet all the percussionists hate me right now. She probably told them that I was being mean and just broke up with her; I don't care about them (Frankie and Ricky you are excluded lol) I just want to go back to the old days of middle school, everything was so much fun and less complicated there.
High school has gone by so fast. It is my Junior year and soon Senior year will be here, then it will be over, and i'll be in Austin at UT, and visiting 6th street on the weekends to hear the sounds of a guitarist or bassist who's talent has gone unnoticed. I wonder if we will all still see each other and hang out like we do now, but when we are in college. You guys have been my friends forever and I don't want to lose you.
Dear Danny,
You wanted to know what Michael told me on Sunday, so here it is.
"Do you think i'm a bother when I hang out with you and Miriam?"
"Nah, I'm ok with you being there."
I liked it better with Michael there. Atleast I can talk to him and keep a conversation that actually has a point to it.
Maybe my mom was right. She told me that Miriam was still young and that we wouldn't have much in common, I now know that she told me the truth. I'm gonna try to stick to girls my own age from now on, unless I really get to know them first. I think that Miriam and I just started too fast, but still, I don't want to go back to her again. I want to save both her and I the pain that will eventually come to be.
Kathy told me in summer to join the debate team, and Ashley told me a few days ago to join cuz she is in it, and I talked to Danny today and he wants me to join too lol. I'll go join it tomorrow, but I don't know which team to join though, so please tell me which ones do what? Danny told me that I won't be able to go on the Austin trip, but that's ok, I don't really want to go, I just want to join the team and have fun doing something new. I just hope we don't have to debate against each other...I always lose against Kathy and sometimes Danny, but I can take you Ashley. muWAHAhaha
Thanks for the help Ashley and Alyssa, you guys were there for me and I appreciate it...oh, and Val too lol sorry.
later guys
High school has gone by so fast. It is my Junior year and soon Senior year will be here, then it will be over, and i'll be in Austin at UT, and visiting 6th street on the weekends to hear the sounds of a guitarist or bassist who's talent has gone unnoticed. I wonder if we will all still see each other and hang out like we do now, but when we are in college. You guys have been my friends forever and I don't want to lose you.
Dear Danny,
You wanted to know what Michael told me on Sunday, so here it is.
"Do you think i'm a bother when I hang out with you and Miriam?"
"Nah, I'm ok with you being there."
I liked it better with Michael there. Atleast I can talk to him and keep a conversation that actually has a point to it.
Maybe my mom was right. She told me that Miriam was still young and that we wouldn't have much in common, I now know that she told me the truth. I'm gonna try to stick to girls my own age from now on, unless I really get to know them first. I think that Miriam and I just started too fast, but still, I don't want to go back to her again. I want to save both her and I the pain that will eventually come to be.
Kathy told me in summer to join the debate team, and Ashley told me a few days ago to join cuz she is in it, and I talked to Danny today and he wants me to join too lol. I'll go join it tomorrow, but I don't know which team to join though, so please tell me which ones do what? Danny told me that I won't be able to go on the Austin trip, but that's ok, I don't really want to go, I just want to join the team and have fun doing something new. I just hope we don't have to debate against each other...I always lose against Kathy and sometimes Danny, but I can take you Ashley. muWAHAhaha
Thanks for the help Ashley and Alyssa, you guys were there for me and I appreciate it...oh, and Val too lol sorry.
later guys