Introspection...something I've had so little time for.
Its been a while since I updated this thing...namely because my life has been relatively free of pain and emo related things.
But that doesn't mean I need some time to merely look at myself now does it?
First off, to start things on a few positive notes...I've resolved the discomfort I felt about only having my job for about two weeks. At the family reunion I went to I talked with my half-brother about it and he explained to me that he had that happen to him several times.
Heh, he once had a job at burger king for four hours before they fired him. Knowing that I am not the only person who has fallen victim to this and how my brother has a successful and overall happy life, it makes me feel better about life itself.
Speaking of which the family reunion it was great, so many family members were there, it was just great.
Also, since Chris has came back I've hung out with him from time to time. I at first was irrationally terrified of losing my friend to a religious camp that essentially brainwashed you.
Thank god this was not the case, and overall Chris and I have been hanging on alot and we are as a good a friends as ever.
I also got a few older videogames that I love, The two N64 Zelda games and CV: Legacy of Darkness, which I plan to enjoy.
I got a Cd player too! So when the ones I detest are here I can listen to music to drown out their mindless blabber.
Of course, Rosa always has to make an appearence in my LJ rants. My feelings for her remain as strong as ever, although in blunt honesty I acknowledge my attraction to her as being more then physical (how this happened seems difficult to understand, let alone explain) but I still resent them. I haven't seen her in a long time, yet she still slips into my mind occasionally. Its quite pathetic really, I'm been "in love" with this girl since the start of my junior year.
Next year will ultimately determine what happens.
My prediction: I talk to her once, and its rather awkward, and then we never speak again or even acknowledge the other's existence.
Sad? Yes it is, but I simply do not care...and yet I do. Ah hell, I needn't ramble on about this anymore.
But that doesn't mean I need some time to merely look at myself now does it?
First off, to start things on a few positive notes...I've resolved the discomfort I felt about only having my job for about two weeks. At the family reunion I went to I talked with my half-brother about it and he explained to me that he had that happen to him several times.
Heh, he once had a job at burger king for four hours before they fired him. Knowing that I am not the only person who has fallen victim to this and how my brother has a successful and overall happy life, it makes me feel better about life itself.
Speaking of which the family reunion it was great, so many family members were there, it was just great.
Also, since Chris has came back I've hung out with him from time to time. I at first was irrationally terrified of losing my friend to a religious camp that essentially brainwashed you.
Thank god this was not the case, and overall Chris and I have been hanging on alot and we are as a good a friends as ever.
I also got a few older videogames that I love, The two N64 Zelda games and CV: Legacy of Darkness, which I plan to enjoy.
I got a Cd player too! So when the ones I detest are here I can listen to music to drown out their mindless blabber.
Of course, Rosa always has to make an appearence in my LJ rants. My feelings for her remain as strong as ever, although in blunt honesty I acknowledge my attraction to her as being more then physical (how this happened seems difficult to understand, let alone explain) but I still resent them. I haven't seen her in a long time, yet she still slips into my mind occasionally. Its quite pathetic really, I'm been "in love" with this girl since the start of my junior year.
Next year will ultimately determine what happens.
My prediction: I talk to her once, and its rather awkward, and then we never speak again or even acknowledge the other's existence.
Sad? Yes it is, but I simply do not care...and yet I do. Ah hell, I needn't ramble on about this anymore.