thoughts
wow its been awhile since I last posted in here.
Well I didn't get the job. They gave it to an asshole that has more experience than I, but I had better results in a shorter time span. Either way, I gave it a shot, and tried. So no DC.
Its the first day of November, this year had completely flown by. Everyone always told me that after school your life seems to speed up. Now I believe them. Almost a year ago I was graduating. I think about how crazy my life has been in 2008 and it makes me think...what else is coming? there have been so many situations I never thought I would make it through and here I am, standing tall and proud.
It's almost my birthday... big 25. I think this will be the quietest yet. No plans for the Pony or another strip club...all I want to do is go to the aquarium and get a nice dinner somewhere. Which made me realize that I have calmed down 120%. I no longer want to go out and party it up, I dont want to even drink anymore. It makes me tired sometimes or it makes me a crazy loud drunk bitch. Either way..I sober it out. I watch everyone else "have fun" at these clubs and wish I were somewhere quiet with a warm drink having a great conversation, listening to low music that doesn't suck my soul out my ears; ie not drum and bass. Why do clubs/bars play the musuc at such a defening volume? It distorts my sences and I get angry.
Call it what you want, I see it as though I have burned myself out of going out hanging out with drunks and worring about how everyone is getting home.
Anyone else obssessed with this election? I am. It's not healthy. At work we share videos and funny stuff, but inside I really am holding my breathe for the 5th. I pray to any and all gods that O'bama wins. This country is in such a bad place. Whereever I go, I hear people talking polictics. All ages, colors, and even some drunks talk about it in any social setting. My ADD hones right in and listens to their conversations...I cant stop learning about how people are dealing with the issues. Every person has the right to think whatever way they want to about FACTS, but that sis the problem...must people dont know the facts. I find myself looking for the different ways that CNN, FOX, MSNBC, and the AP talk about the same incident. All bias all BS until you get to someone with a full video...than its all out. It is so sad that all levels of elected officials lie lie lie about things they JUST said than the video comes out and everyone knows they lied...does anyone call it? Only a few journalists do...Keep your eyes open people...
John...my love. The best guy I have met that walks this Earth and I am having doubts. What is wrong with me? Am I scared of that third step...moving in together. I've always just jumped into that without htining, so caught up in "love". SO much so that I lost the ability to look objectivly at a situation. Now I've learned from these mistakes, and I over analyze anything. We talk about marriage, kids, even went ring shopping once and I am having doubts about us. Actually its me...there are so many things I want to do still and if things progress I can't just up and do them.
I want to go bck to school next fall for my MBA
I will get out of GEORGIA
and I can't go out of state for school if we get engaged. It would hurt too much
and with all the emotions and stress we went through with my interviews in DC, I know going through that again would not be good for him. He has so much going here.
blah i could write for years.....maybe another day
Well I didn't get the job. They gave it to an asshole that has more experience than I, but I had better results in a shorter time span. Either way, I gave it a shot, and tried. So no DC.
Its the first day of November, this year had completely flown by. Everyone always told me that after school your life seems to speed up. Now I believe them. Almost a year ago I was graduating. I think about how crazy my life has been in 2008 and it makes me think...what else is coming? there have been so many situations I never thought I would make it through and here I am, standing tall and proud.
It's almost my birthday... big 25. I think this will be the quietest yet. No plans for the Pony or another strip club...all I want to do is go to the aquarium and get a nice dinner somewhere. Which made me realize that I have calmed down 120%. I no longer want to go out and party it up, I dont want to even drink anymore. It makes me tired sometimes or it makes me a crazy loud drunk bitch. Either way..I sober it out. I watch everyone else "have fun" at these clubs and wish I were somewhere quiet with a warm drink having a great conversation, listening to low music that doesn't suck my soul out my ears; ie not drum and bass. Why do clubs/bars play the musuc at such a defening volume? It distorts my sences and I get angry.
Call it what you want, I see it as though I have burned myself out of going out hanging out with drunks and worring about how everyone is getting home.
Anyone else obssessed with this election? I am. It's not healthy. At work we share videos and funny stuff, but inside I really am holding my breathe for the 5th. I pray to any and all gods that O'bama wins. This country is in such a bad place. Whereever I go, I hear people talking polictics. All ages, colors, and even some drunks talk about it in any social setting. My ADD hones right in and listens to their conversations...I cant stop learning about how people are dealing with the issues. Every person has the right to think whatever way they want to about FACTS, but that sis the problem...must people dont know the facts. I find myself looking for the different ways that CNN, FOX, MSNBC, and the AP talk about the same incident. All bias all BS until you get to someone with a full video...than its all out. It is so sad that all levels of elected officials lie lie lie about things they JUST said than the video comes out and everyone knows they lied...does anyone call it? Only a few journalists do...Keep your eyes open people...
John...my love. The best guy I have met that walks this Earth and I am having doubts. What is wrong with me? Am I scared of that third step...moving in together. I've always just jumped into that without htining, so caught up in "love". SO much so that I lost the ability to look objectivly at a situation. Now I've learned from these mistakes, and I over analyze anything. We talk about marriage, kids, even went ring shopping once and I am having doubts about us. Actually its me...there are so many things I want to do still and if things progress I can't just up and do them.
I want to go bck to school next fall for my MBA
I will get out of GEORGIA
and I can't go out of state for school if we get engaged. It would hurt too much
and with all the emotions and stress we went through with my interviews in DC, I know going through that again would not be good for him. He has so much going here.
blah i could write for years.....maybe another day