Jul 21, 2007 20:18
depression. I thought I was stronger than it...I was wrong.
I have a hard time getting oud of the house. I only leave to do what is required and what I promise to do. I hate feeling like this. I feel lazy, fat, worthless, sad, and more emotions that even typing them makes me feel worse :(
I don't sleep well. I haven't slept well since Tom visited. That was heaven. I felt like something might actually start after we told eachother the truth about our feelings....only to hear him say that he is not ready to be with me...so I guess I'll wait another 7 years
Something positive....I have tickets to Dave Mathews and Bjork...guess thats good news
I'm done with Marketing in 3 weeks
Ill be in Florida for a few days than going to see Tom...
I miss my old self. Maybe it's because I'm more aware of things and a lot more careful, but there are many nights, like tonight where I had plans and I had to dump them becuase I wouldn't be good company...
Bloah
I think I just need to get laid....thats it right there!