I'm sick of everything!

[xamayax]

God damnit. I'm sick of living in this place, I'm sick of a lot of people. Everythings so retarded right now. I don't understand it, I keep breaking down and crying. I've been sleeping a lot, it's the only thing asides Hot apple cider that is making me happy. It gets everything off my mind, because I stop living for 8-12 hours. I'm sick of my life, I really am. I'm sick of the people who are around me ( except the exceptional few.8) )Jeeze I can't wait to go to a different school next year. I think I still am, I pray to god I am. I need to start over. I hate everything! I've been quiet for the past week, I hardly am talking to Michelle, or anyone. I don't even feel right when I talk to people. I feel sick constantly, I feel like everything is crashing down around me. I don't even know who I can rely on in life.. My dads going back in for surgery, on the day his dad died from heartfailure/attack. Yeah thats just weird. Isn't it? Especially since the surgery is on his heart. I find it quite scary.

My next appt. is the 22nd I'm not sure if I can last that long even though it's just about a week away. I need to get things off of my chest and soon enough it's going to blow up in my face and I'm going to do something stupid. When don't I do something stupid? Guess whose friends again.. jeeze. Thats just weird. I betcha I'm going to get shafted :) WOOT!

Anyways I'm gone cause I'm breaking down again..

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