sunlight shining through my window, lets me know that im still alive
its tuesday. monday was an okay day. monday night was pretty good too. well monday night i slept a total of about 20 minutes. i dont htink that was real good. so today i looked really crappy cause im so not in good shape. ha. but then i realized that i kinda forgot what its like to feel well rested. its weird. im not that tired. im kind of just really calm and at the same time shakey. um. i had guitar tonight. thats about all i did. i came home form school and was really cold and so calm i shook myself to sleep for an hour. then woke up with a stiff achy neck and back. that was beat. i ate 2 whole meals today and drank milk. thats a plus. but today i was more weak than normal. and i keep choking up on the inside. like my throat hurts really bad. not the sick hurt either. hurt like when you want to cry but your trying your hardest not to. i guess maybe i can start to vent on here now.
things have been good and bad.
lots of broken relationships and relationships put back together.
i think me and ang should be best friends
i think me and bev need to call eachtoher instead of waiting like 5 days for mail and then 5 days to respond because i dont htink i can take much longer without her.
i also think that we need to agree on what the problem is because we both think many different things.
i just want to call her up and tell her to sleep over so we can talk talk for hours and go to tunes and whole foods again and steal food and get cds and meet devon witht he chinease food. haha.
october and november are my favorite months but october this year is just kind of going by fast and crazy.
a year ago today i probally would have been drunk with jess.
halloween is in 5 days
fall makes me think about my past
i want some sort of cute fuzzy animal
i miss last year
ive thought about johnny c a lot and i dont even know why
i really really really really really want my nightmare before christmas movie to work. actually i want a new one. and it makes me so sad that i dont cause i want to watch is every day again like before.
im starting to feel better with this whole venting thing
i love my friends.
ryans birthday is tomorrow. and i made him a card. its not that good but i did it.
i have bad add... today i like wrote a friggen book in english.
i need to read that story for english and re do my project thing
matt sweders my best friend.
i need new clothes.
i only wear 2 pairs of jeans. maybe 3. and i love it. cause then i dont have to take anyhting out of my pockets or my belt off or naything.
my laundry smells soooo good. i love smelling myself now.
i listened to the early november to fall asleep last night.
i cant wait till christmas.
i love surprises
i want a single red rose.
or a daisy. daisy face.
i need a new good book. i think i might actually go to the library or something after school. take a walk with my headphones and get a book.
i almost got hit by a car this morning.
theres a in lunch that me and matt always end up in front of in line and shes stands like on our backs. no joke. its sooooo annoying. i just want to turn around and punch her in the face.
i got hit in the head with a seatbelt today.
tomorrows wednesday and that means we're half through.
well now that i wasted anyones time who read this.. and i got everything out almost. im going to go.
<3 amanda
things have been good and bad.
lots of broken relationships and relationships put back together.
i think me and ang should be best friends
i think me and bev need to call eachtoher instead of waiting like 5 days for mail and then 5 days to respond because i dont htink i can take much longer without her.
i also think that we need to agree on what the problem is because we both think many different things.
i just want to call her up and tell her to sleep over so we can talk talk for hours and go to tunes and whole foods again and steal food and get cds and meet devon witht he chinease food. haha.
october and november are my favorite months but october this year is just kind of going by fast and crazy.
a year ago today i probally would have been drunk with jess.
halloween is in 5 days
fall makes me think about my past
i want some sort of cute fuzzy animal
i miss last year
ive thought about johnny c a lot and i dont even know why
i really really really really really want my nightmare before christmas movie to work. actually i want a new one. and it makes me so sad that i dont cause i want to watch is every day again like before.
im starting to feel better with this whole venting thing
i love my friends.
ryans birthday is tomorrow. and i made him a card. its not that good but i did it.
i have bad add... today i like wrote a friggen book in english.
i need to read that story for english and re do my project thing
matt sweders my best friend.
i need new clothes.
i only wear 2 pairs of jeans. maybe 3. and i love it. cause then i dont have to take anyhting out of my pockets or my belt off or naything.
my laundry smells soooo good. i love smelling myself now.
i listened to the early november to fall asleep last night.
i cant wait till christmas.
i love surprises
i want a single red rose.
or a daisy. daisy face.
i need a new good book. i think i might actually go to the library or something after school. take a walk with my headphones and get a book.
i almost got hit by a car this morning.
theres a in lunch that me and matt always end up in front of in line and shes stands like on our backs. no joke. its sooooo annoying. i just want to turn around and punch her in the face.
i got hit in the head with a seatbelt today.
tomorrows wednesday and that means we're half through.
well now that i wasted anyones time who read this.. and i got everything out almost. im going to go.
<3 amanda