Only 3 more days
School is out in 3 days... So exciting! My summer is going to be filled with shows and work and many experiences... On friday the 18th I am going to Bob's Java Jive, The liberty, or Adrian's. Pistol is playing at the liberty so that should be fun along with jet city ... oh yeah.. I got into an arguement with my mom... again. Is it me? Am I always wrong? I hope not. I know I just need to have a little more respect but sometimes it wouldn't hurt to get some in return. That is enough complaining for now. I will know in two weeks if I get the job at the old country buffet in south hill. I hope so but i highly doubt it... they are "highly staffed" so they say. I get my lisence in Sept. and Hopefully by next summer I will have a vehicle... For those of you who know me, you know that my will power level is about 2000 degrees below low... but I have a very good reason to not smoke and drink.I cannot afford to lose $200... lol At the begining of the year I would have never pictured myself being where I am now... I have messed up very bad but I have also turned my life around. My friend Chantelle told me yesterday that, even though we dont hang out anymore, she is glad that my life is getting on the right track... well the other day, Friday, I got high. She told me that when she sees me do this, after all I've done to change for the better, she just gets torn. I was talking with amanda k and I know we are always going to be friends... I dont know what i would do with out that girl... oh and i am happy because today matt,from special kay, asked her out!!! GO AMANDA!!! Honestly i dont know how she does it. Shes just so damn hott. Looks like I am shit outof luck. I have come to have a friend who tells me what he thinks. This is a good thing. I go to a Christian church, was raised to Love god and in my mind there is an organized religion that has been embedded there for my whole life. Thanx to Owen, I have now come to realize that organized religion is not as good as the people in it, in the colts lol, seem to think. I get scared when we have talks about this. I've shedded a few tears.. said a few thoughts and listened very intentively... I still believe in God. In Jesus Christ. I still believe that He died for me, for all of us. Ok ok ok i shall not kid you any longer. I want to believe in God. I can't. I see how it is "from the outside" and now I cannot go back. If I can have proof, then I will feel Oh so dumb for doubting, but until God comes down to earth to save me from losing my faith...I will just live mylife by what I can do... not by what I could do if Jesus was with me... So thanxto you owen, good friend... you've helped me... I am still confused, but there is always the phone..................................................... OK well so ends my third period, so ends my time to write... until next time..................... I wont smoke or drink.............