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DEAD WEIGHT, DEAD STARE
the weather today has been washing over me. the wind was beautiful, i haven't seen wind like that in years, the rain was also amazing, and i'm glad it kept up. i've been moving around the house listlessly, wanting to do something but not quite being able to settle down and do it for more than ten minutes so i've been wandering around not really doing much. i got some reading done, and alot of thinking, not enough the suffering but i think that will change soon. the air around here is starting to feel unstable because i know we will be leaving this place in the near future, i'm going to miss it alot. so many memories are soaked into its foundations. i'm glad i started watching aquateens again, i haven't seen that in forever either, last night were two of my absolute favorite episodes too. i want the new sealab dvd. everything with my job turned out even better than it was before, i guess that's what i get for wasting so much time flipping out about it. me and rob left three pizzas outside and a skunk raided bob's porch and he was giving me a skunk lecture this morning and then birds ate all the mold pizza.
too much time to think, i can't even overpower it with anything trivial. the sky is the weirdest fucking color. i am knocking my arrow at another memory.
i miss sam. alot. i want to bake her a huge muffin.