oh my effing gosh
This week has been REALLY f'ed up
hah
Sunday my cousin Christopher[Kevin.] came down from GA. he just went home today.
&& hes going to move down here, wednesday?
he is gonna hateeee it!! i swear,its so boring.
then matt stayed the night last night,so did christopher && my wife.
Matt pulled me in my room && said having a girlfriend is hard so he thought that we needed to just "take it easy" for a while. && i got mad cause i really care about him..[A LOT.] so i just said whatever & walked out.
then I went through the WHOLLEEE day thinking it was actually over.
Then at lyke around 8; he said, you're prolly gonna hate me, but i was just kidding. I WAS SOO EFFING MAD! so i lyke walked out cause i didnt know what to say to him. && he was lyke what?!?! i said YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO PLAY WITH MY EMOTIONS LYKE THAT. && he got mad && was acting all stuck up & we was laying down in the living room watching Team America[GAY!.] & out of nowhere, he got up & i asked him where he was going & he said he was going to sleep in my room so i followed him & he was lyke GET OUT! so i was lyke WTF?!its my room, so i threw a pillow at him & walked out. & i didnt know he was gone, but i walked back in there && layed down & he didnt come in there so i went looking for him & he was outside on top of my bros club house thing just laying there, i asked him what was wrong & he just rolled his eyes. But he told my brother & christopher that i act lyke i dont want nothin to do with him! But i told him that wasnt true cause i want EVERYTHING to do with him.
So i lyke layed my head on his shoulder & said i loved him && asked him why he thought that, && he just pushed me away.
i had no idea what made him think that cause I act more caring than he ever will..he acts lyke a JERK a lot of times but then at times hes SWEET.
but oh well. whatev. i dont know whats wrong with him but if he keeps pushing me away, im gonna go stay away && hes gonna need me but im not gonna be there. he'll be sorry.
Then he woke up at 11; today to go to work so i followed him outside to wait for his bro with him, && gave him a hug & a kiss & said, even though you're mad && hate me,i still love you & he said oh im not mad anymore.
hes the most CONFUSING boy i know.
hes lyke a stop-light, you never know when hes gonna change.
kay
then my mom called && said shes not going to FLORIDA! I AM SO MAD CAUSE I WANT HER TO GO!
its not gonna be the same without her.
I told matt that she wasnt going & he said WHY?!? then he said,oh you dont have to go if you dont want.
i was lyke ok?
but he might come over tonight so i can actually talk to him alone & find out his problem
(:
hopefully he tells me.
ohyeah i met this realllyy cool dood named dustin
hes awesome && i get to meet him when he comes back from his grandmas house
hha fun.
p.s
NEW CELLY.
ask me for the #
:)
love,
brittany.nicole.housman.
[CHRISTIAN I LOVE YOU.] (: hehe