A new beginning...........
Well I must say it has been a while... I am thinking about actually using this again. Please ignore all of the previous entries, as I have changed immensely and am no longer that person. I dont want to delete them because they are an important part of my past, and I enjoy looking back and reading them from time to time, but I do want readers to be aware that they are not relevant toward who I am today.
So I have been having a very interesting junior year. It is funny to think about how many changes have been made, some for the better, some not.
First of all... and possibly most important... my roommate. I got the job as an RA this year, so I no longer have a roommate. What I didnt realize upon taking the job was that "no roommate" really meant "no friendship with the ex-roommate". It was a pretty difficult first semester as an RA in that sense, with one of my best friends gone from my life. I dont think she knows how important she was to me, and how much I wish things could be like they were. As I was reading some of my past entries tonight, I saw posts that referred to her. Sometimes it makes me sad, to think about that lost friendship, but I have to wonder if there is a reason it went sour. We were able to patch it up a little bit, but we are still nowhere near where we used to be. But hey, at least we are speaking, civilly, and not ignoring each other all the time. While I know things will never be the same, I am thankful for all the good times we did have and will enjoy anything that happens in the future. We are no longer fighting, and are slowly rebuilding a friendship.
After losing that friendship I made lots of new friends, which I suppose could be seen as the silver lining to the cloud. I am very grateful that I had the opportunity to make new friends, and I appreciate them always being here for me. One friend has become very close to me, and I consider her a sister (and everyone else seems to think we are as well!! especially the dean!!). She and I have so much in common, and have definitely bonded this year. I know that she and I will be friends for a very long time. After all... she's already invited to my wedding!!
Another friendship was rekindled, and has strengthened through the past several months. She and I have found our commonalities, and have had a lot of fun along the way. We will be traveling to Nashville in a few weeks, which should be a wonderful trip! I am very excited to go, and am glad to have a friend that will go as well! I know we will have an amazing time... especially when we get to experience "real" country line dancing!!
So I have gone through my fair share of changes this year, and I know many more are to come. I have made many decisions on my own, some that others expected, some that they didnt. I dont always choose the right thing, but at least I can say I try to. I am trying to figure out who I really am, and it is a long and difficult journey. I know that my friends will be there for me the entire way, and I truly appreciate their support.
So I have been having a very interesting junior year. It is funny to think about how many changes have been made, some for the better, some not.
First of all... and possibly most important... my roommate. I got the job as an RA this year, so I no longer have a roommate. What I didnt realize upon taking the job was that "no roommate" really meant "no friendship with the ex-roommate". It was a pretty difficult first semester as an RA in that sense, with one of my best friends gone from my life. I dont think she knows how important she was to me, and how much I wish things could be like they were. As I was reading some of my past entries tonight, I saw posts that referred to her. Sometimes it makes me sad, to think about that lost friendship, but I have to wonder if there is a reason it went sour. We were able to patch it up a little bit, but we are still nowhere near where we used to be. But hey, at least we are speaking, civilly, and not ignoring each other all the time. While I know things will never be the same, I am thankful for all the good times we did have and will enjoy anything that happens in the future. We are no longer fighting, and are slowly rebuilding a friendship.
After losing that friendship I made lots of new friends, which I suppose could be seen as the silver lining to the cloud. I am very grateful that I had the opportunity to make new friends, and I appreciate them always being here for me. One friend has become very close to me, and I consider her a sister (and everyone else seems to think we are as well!! especially the dean!!). She and I have so much in common, and have definitely bonded this year. I know that she and I will be friends for a very long time. After all... she's already invited to my wedding!!
Another friendship was rekindled, and has strengthened through the past several months. She and I have found our commonalities, and have had a lot of fun along the way. We will be traveling to Nashville in a few weeks, which should be a wonderful trip! I am very excited to go, and am glad to have a friend that will go as well! I know we will have an amazing time... especially when we get to experience "real" country line dancing!!
So I have gone through my fair share of changes this year, and I know many more are to come. I have made many decisions on my own, some that others expected, some that they didnt. I dont always choose the right thing, but at least I can say I try to. I am trying to figure out who I really am, and it is a long and difficult journey. I know that my friends will be there for me the entire way, and I truly appreciate their support.