An Apology
*sigh* Well the concert went really well. Was a great audience and a great feeling. I just love it! :-)
Anyway, after some time and a conversation with dreximgirl I realised that my post the other day was quite nasty and unattractive to people who don't know me that well. I wanted to clarify that I was still very angry, disappointed and tired that night, and I should have done as my mother has said before ie. write out what you really want to say, delete it and then write something more constructive. So I apologise if I came over as arrogant and nasty.
I have thought about it a lot over the last two weeks and I realised why I have this conflict in my head over this choir thing. So here's my theory, back when I was in choir in college, our choirmaster was dealing with a fewer people which meant that he knew people's potential and their abilities quite well. He'd often swap people from an alto role to a soprano and vice versa if he knew they could do it. Transferring from that to an entirely new choir with 100+ people in it is an entirely new ballgame and I was trying to apply my previous experience to a wholly different situation. Here, Will hasn't had the time to get to know everyone in the time we've been together, so I don't know why I was expecting the same treatment as I was used to, but I did.
I now realise I shouldn't have and that it is going to take time to 'find my place' which means that I need to have patience and hold back. I am learning some great technique and control for my singing which I think is helping already, so for now, I am contenting myself that that is enough, since ultimately I want it to help make me a better performer. :-)
I hope you guys can understand. I'm now going to sleep this tramadol off :-P
luv
K
Anyway, after some time and a conversation with dreximgirl I realised that my post the other day was quite nasty and unattractive to people who don't know me that well. I wanted to clarify that I was still very angry, disappointed and tired that night, and I should have done as my mother has said before ie. write out what you really want to say, delete it and then write something more constructive. So I apologise if I came over as arrogant and nasty.
I have thought about it a lot over the last two weeks and I realised why I have this conflict in my head over this choir thing. So here's my theory, back when I was in choir in college, our choirmaster was dealing with a fewer people which meant that he knew people's potential and their abilities quite well. He'd often swap people from an alto role to a soprano and vice versa if he knew they could do it. Transferring from that to an entirely new choir with 100+ people in it is an entirely new ballgame and I was trying to apply my previous experience to a wholly different situation. Here, Will hasn't had the time to get to know everyone in the time we've been together, so I don't know why I was expecting the same treatment as I was used to, but I did.
I now realise I shouldn't have and that it is going to take time to 'find my place' which means that I need to have patience and hold back. I am learning some great technique and control for my singing which I think is helping already, so for now, I am contenting myself that that is enough, since ultimately I want it to help make me a better performer. :-)
I hope you guys can understand. I'm now going to sleep this tramadol off :-P
luv
K