where do i start?
well, it is almost the end of november. 2009 has been a whirlwind, but all in all i don't think i have ever had this much fun. i do regret that i let a piece of myself become shallow, but i promise you an ocean still lies within me.
i let loose, enjoyed myself and my company. indulged. partied like there was no tomorrow at the most sought-after clubs in hollywood. i spent too much, surrounding myself with pretty, expensive things.
reminds me of jay-z's song young forever where he says "live life like a video..."
it has been like a movie, honestly. but we are not forever young and there is a time to grow up. i am on the edge of it, but i just haven't gotten there yet. i will, i know i will.
i need to take the GRE to apply to grad school for next year. but i somehow just cannot pull myself together to do it. it's like my body, mind, and soul are all resisting and won't let me. it will happen one day, i just need to be at the right place in my life maybe. i would love to be back in school, i really would, but i suppose i should have a slightly better plan before going to grad school? i am still unsure about what i want my career to be.
this whole moving six times in the past two and a half years has really opened my eyes. it is so strange, but i do not have a home. i am a stray. it is okay though, and i accept that until i settle down, i will be homeless, but at least i have a hometown. that is something i will cherish, and hopefully someday soon i will find a place to call my home.
i am happy with what i have; good friends, a family that will love and support me no matter what, and the warmth of a man who respects me. after talking about it for ages, i finally booked a trip to europe. i will be spending new years in amsterdam and a few days after that in paris<3
i sense a change coming soon...
i let loose, enjoyed myself and my company. indulged. partied like there was no tomorrow at the most sought-after clubs in hollywood. i spent too much, surrounding myself with pretty, expensive things.
reminds me of jay-z's song young forever where he says "live life like a video..."
it has been like a movie, honestly. but we are not forever young and there is a time to grow up. i am on the edge of it, but i just haven't gotten there yet. i will, i know i will.
i need to take the GRE to apply to grad school for next year. but i somehow just cannot pull myself together to do it. it's like my body, mind, and soul are all resisting and won't let me. it will happen one day, i just need to be at the right place in my life maybe. i would love to be back in school, i really would, but i suppose i should have a slightly better plan before going to grad school? i am still unsure about what i want my career to be.
this whole moving six times in the past two and a half years has really opened my eyes. it is so strange, but i do not have a home. i am a stray. it is okay though, and i accept that until i settle down, i will be homeless, but at least i have a hometown. that is something i will cherish, and hopefully someday soon i will find a place to call my home.
i am happy with what i have; good friends, a family that will love and support me no matter what, and the warmth of a man who respects me. after talking about it for ages, i finally booked a trip to europe. i will be spending new years in amsterdam and a few days after that in paris<3
i sense a change coming soon...