holding on
So, i spent all last sunday night with Andrew. Just being stupid, wii bowling, dancing. Then went to work on monday, went to waffle house with josie and anne. then to Andrew's going away party thing at Empire. I'm super bummed about Andrew leaving and i feel like he is the same about leaving me/my life.. but at the same time earlier i had noticed he added this girl into his top friends, and she was there. and i know it's not like he likes her like that, i know its a friend thing, but i know he hadn't known her for long. and here we are hanging out almost every other night and i'm not in his top friends? he at the time was my number 4. and i know top friends is stupid and childish and blah blah blah but it kinda hurt my feelings because i feel like i'm not "punk rock/train hopper" enough for him. he never left me comments. and i just thought that was andrew, but i was lookin at other people's pages that left him comments about how much they missed him, and he left them a comment back. i mean, i know he misses me because he text me 2 nights ago to tell me. So i guess that should be good enough. I guess it's just that i feel like that with everyone. like i'm a secret they keep. i am with andy, Brian, Marc.. It gets to a point where it makes you feel like a piece of shit.
anyway, that wasn't where i was going with that story at all. So i'm at andrew's going away party and i know everyone pretty much except the girl i mentioned about and this one other kid, who i noticed was cute, but didnt think too much of it. i was there for andrew, and i was pretty much by his side. we were at a table talking and he called the girl alison over and then this guy Brent came over. He asked me why i looked familiar. i had never seen him before, so i said i didn't know and he asked me if i knew Brett. which i do. make a long story short, we ended up talking a lot just because we somehow ended up sitting next to each other at the table. and to make an even longer story shorter, he asked me to dinner. He wanted to go the next day, but i had plans and eventually Andrew and I were leaving before Brent and I had even exchanged numbers or anything. So we found each other on myspace and we set up to have dinner last night (thursday.)
It was so uber sweet what he did.
He has just started working at Sticky Rice, so he's still learning to roll sushi, but he made up a shit ton of sushi, had a tablecloth, and a spot outside in a part in the fan picked out for us to eat. I haven't had someone put that much thought into something for me in a really long time. not since Robert. We ate and then ended up walking around the fan talking for like 2 hours. It was really cute and we plan on hanging out again on Sunday. Again, he's really punk and i often wonder what the attraction is to me/feel like i'm not punk rock enough for them. But if he's happy with me the way i am, i'm happy with him the way he is. Hopefully all goes well. It's started very well. i kinda can't wait til date #2.
So that is all. Still trying to figure out if i'm going to atlanta or not. we shall seeeeeee.
anyway, that wasn't where i was going with that story at all. So i'm at andrew's going away party and i know everyone pretty much except the girl i mentioned about and this one other kid, who i noticed was cute, but didnt think too much of it. i was there for andrew, and i was pretty much by his side. we were at a table talking and he called the girl alison over and then this guy Brent came over. He asked me why i looked familiar. i had never seen him before, so i said i didn't know and he asked me if i knew Brett. which i do. make a long story short, we ended up talking a lot just because we somehow ended up sitting next to each other at the table. and to make an even longer story shorter, he asked me to dinner. He wanted to go the next day, but i had plans and eventually Andrew and I were leaving before Brent and I had even exchanged numbers or anything. So we found each other on myspace and we set up to have dinner last night (thursday.)
It was so uber sweet what he did.
He has just started working at Sticky Rice, so he's still learning to roll sushi, but he made up a shit ton of sushi, had a tablecloth, and a spot outside in a part in the fan picked out for us to eat. I haven't had someone put that much thought into something for me in a really long time. not since Robert. We ate and then ended up walking around the fan talking for like 2 hours. It was really cute and we plan on hanging out again on Sunday. Again, he's really punk and i often wonder what the attraction is to me/feel like i'm not punk rock enough for them. But if he's happy with me the way i am, i'm happy with him the way he is. Hopefully all goes well. It's started very well. i kinda can't wait til date #2.
So that is all. Still trying to figure out if i'm going to atlanta or not. we shall seeeeeee.