I Give It All...
I'm out of pills and it hurts so bad. I have to go back to Bangor tomorrow morning to have the tubes pulled out a little further. I'm scared as hell. Who knows what could happen. He'll pull the tube, I'll freak out and jump and the tube will puncture my lung and I won't be able to breathe and that will be it. I don't want to do this anymore. I miss talking to Lindze already. I wish I could talk to her all day. I'm praying for the 28th, but if not, the summer isn't too far away, right? I can't put into words how I feel about her now. Who would think that two people could care so much without even physically seeing eachother. I can only imagine what it will be like to be able to see her whenever I wanted. People take shit for granted all the time, and I think now I know why all this is happening to me...