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I guess I'm going to Pennsylvania this week to be with my grandmother because she's dying..
not like we know she's going to die because she has cancer.. like she's actually dying-
she can't swallow anything, she can't walk, she can't really talk, and she sleeps alot more.
i know that she's not in pain and chances are that she's going to go into a coma and then die, but it's not fair.
i hate that i live in florida. it's so damn far away. i'm so jealous of my cousins. they've gotten to share every great achievement with her- prom, graduation.. everything.
i get to send her pictures and talk on the phone. it's not enough.
i really can't put what i'm feeling into words. i'm so scared because i know i can't do anything. i know it's going to happen. i love her so much.
not like we know she's going to die because she has cancer.. like she's actually dying-
she can't swallow anything, she can't walk, she can't really talk, and she sleeps alot more.
i know that she's not in pain and chances are that she's going to go into a coma and then die, but it's not fair.
i hate that i live in florida. it's so damn far away. i'm so jealous of my cousins. they've gotten to share every great achievement with her- prom, graduation.. everything.
i get to send her pictures and talk on the phone. it's not enough.
i really can't put what i'm feeling into words. i'm so scared because i know i can't do anything. i know it's going to happen. i love her so much.