i dont want to be this

[xabovethewrist]

today at lunch, was like, the worst iv ever felt. i was so fucking depressed. i cant even say why. it just, uhhhh, i hate this. im so fucking pathetic. i wish i could get it out of me. i just was it so bad, but ill never have it. and when i got home, i still felt it. but then i went to the addopt a family thing with my brother, and that took my mind off of it. kayla, riba and amber were there too, it was fun. the little girls were so cute. and then my bro drove me and kayla to the night of lights thing on main street and met thais at kaylas house. much fun. and i met like 59846329 other people there too. like, everyone..almost. i hungout with Cameron, wow, i had not seen him in a year. i missed him so much, he allways entertained me in english and shop last year, then he changed schools. but it was so crazy, i was talking to tyler, and he just walked up and gave me a hug and was like, "omg, do u remember me?!" it was great. it made me very happy, for the momment. but he lives in oc, so he said were gona hangout some time, with like, tyler, tayler, jennie and frankie. sould be cool.

dylan cut his hair, hes even hotter now...

nick also cut his hair, he looks, older, i think, only saw it for like 5 sec. first thing i said to him in 2 months was "its hella short!!" nice...

im so depressed, i cant even cry..i feel so empty.
i hate complaining.
i dono.
i wish things were easyer.
i hate this.
i want it so bad.