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I love how everything is going so perfect..and then suddenly one "thing" happens. Something so drastic that is shatters the world around you, making you feel like earth is closing in on you. Feeling emptiness inside your body; shriveled up and all numb in your bones. Well that "thing" hit me today. Shocked;depressed;heartbroken .. the list goes on. Even though I held it in, deep down I just wanted to break down and cry. My reaction was just indescribable. My world is just a great big blob. I don't know what to do and i am so confused. My world is spinning right now, and everyday I am sinking lower and lower. Everything I did was just a waste of time. I was searching for something that just simply wasnt there. I chased him around; way obsessed over him. That didn't do me any good. Tell me what is the thing, the click, that is missing. Why can't I just let it go. I cannot speak; life just sucks. I just would like all of this despair and hurting to end right now. i guess it just wasnt meant to be