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It's weird. Teen dramas rarely depict a normal dramatic teen scenerio. When one of the characters is being difficult, has a problem, their friend only has to say one thing to them. One sentence, one phrase, on quote, that will show a light to their problem. That moment of "Aha, I've been an asshole".
So why does that never come for me? I'm nice, he perceives it as mean. I'm mean, he perceives it as super mean. Why don't I ever hear "I never thought of it like that," or "You're right", or "Thank you"?
Am I wrong? Am I coward like he so believes I am?
I just don't want to see you starve. I don't want you to be sad. I don't want you to die.
How can this person exist? Among functioning, working, passionate, sexual, thriving beings, how is he capable of existing.
Love is not enough. Hate is not enough.
Just someone, give my my "Aha" sentence, and just make that enough so this can end. Or someone give him the power to hate me so the worrying can stop.
"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."
-Catcher in the Rye
So why does that never come for me? I'm nice, he perceives it as mean. I'm mean, he perceives it as super mean. Why don't I ever hear "I never thought of it like that," or "You're right", or "Thank you"?
Am I wrong? Am I coward like he so believes I am?
I just don't want to see you starve. I don't want you to be sad. I don't want you to die.
How can this person exist? Among functioning, working, passionate, sexual, thriving beings, how is he capable of existing.
Love is not enough. Hate is not enough.
Just someone, give my my "Aha" sentence, and just make that enough so this can end. Or someone give him the power to hate me so the worrying can stop.
"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."
-Catcher in the Rye