Mixed feelings
Kevin - ohhhhhhhh my gosh. haven't been in a healthy relationship ever, til now. More on him another time, right now it's my time to be a hypocrite.
Ryan wrote this in one of his blogs: Friday, September 01, 2006
All of this... it sounds near perfect to me.
Current mood: happy
Category: Romance and Relationships
Being shy and cute on the outside 'cause thats just us sometimes,
but always knowing exactly what we wanna say on the inside.
Sitting on the couch together with nobody else there with us,
laughing at the news 'cause sometimes its just hilarious like that.
Spending time with her family knowing that they're even more a part of her
than I could ever truly be, and that they helped to make her who she is.
Calling her house and not really even knowing what to talk about,
but still being comfortable enough to start up a conversation.
Hearing her voice over the phone even though it sounds different in person,
just because it makes me happy to hear from her at all.
Never wanting to have to say goodbye to each other,
even if we always get to talk again in the very near future.
Listening to heavy music together because we both genuinely like it,
and also partially because we know that our parents don't.
Shooting off fireworks in the road once its dark out,
and watching them burst in the beautiful night sky.
Bragging about her to all of my friends and saying how amazing she is,
only to have them question me without really being able to believe.
Having her meet some of those friends, so they can realize
every single word of what I said was absolutely true.
Having someone who greatly inspires me, brings me happiness,
and brings out once again the artist that lies within me.
Staying just a little farther back from the campfire than the rest,
'cause we know we can always just keep each other warm.
Her hand wrapped tightly around my own,
not wanting to let go... never wanting to lose grip.
My fingers running through her beautiful blonde hair
as we sit quietly together, anticipating what will happen next.
Going to our first dance together and getting to see her there,
after she's all dressed up and tried her best to look nice for me.
Knowing that its not even the way she is dressed thats what matters,
but she went out of her way to look even prettier than she already does.
Walking up behind her quietly, trying not to let her notice,
so I can wrap my arms around her and place my hands on hers.
Placing my hand softly upon her cheek, looking deeply into her eyes,
and moving in for that first kiss I know we've both been waiting for.
Finally having her there to hold tightly within in my arms,
looking down into her eyes, and telling her that I'm all hers.
Currently listening :
Suicide Notes & Butterfly Kisses
By Atreyu
Release date: By 26 April, 2005
5:59 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment
BACK TO EL:
I'm hypocritical here, maybe, yeah, I'm with Kevin, but I'm not being a douche about it, all uh, yeah, we wanna be all makey outy and cute and happy and perfect and like in a little white cottage, bullshit.
Ryan seems to have gotten over me fast. one minute, he's all, OMG I'll wait for you, I'll tell Anna that I love you and can't be with her right now"
Then a few hours later "I think the best thing is for us to be apart, besides, I owe it to myself and Anna to see how it works.
That's fine with me, I'm great with Kevin, but it seems like Ryan is just leaving me in the dust. I don't think he has the mentallity for me to stay friends with him
Ryan wrote this in one of his blogs: Friday, September 01, 2006
All of this... it sounds near perfect to me.
Current mood: happy
Category: Romance and Relationships
Being shy and cute on the outside 'cause thats just us sometimes,
but always knowing exactly what we wanna say on the inside.
Sitting on the couch together with nobody else there with us,
laughing at the news 'cause sometimes its just hilarious like that.
Spending time with her family knowing that they're even more a part of her
than I could ever truly be, and that they helped to make her who she is.
Calling her house and not really even knowing what to talk about,
but still being comfortable enough to start up a conversation.
Hearing her voice over the phone even though it sounds different in person,
just because it makes me happy to hear from her at all.
Never wanting to have to say goodbye to each other,
even if we always get to talk again in the very near future.
Listening to heavy music together because we both genuinely like it,
and also partially because we know that our parents don't.
Shooting off fireworks in the road once its dark out,
and watching them burst in the beautiful night sky.
Bragging about her to all of my friends and saying how amazing she is,
only to have them question me without really being able to believe.
Having her meet some of those friends, so they can realize
every single word of what I said was absolutely true.
Having someone who greatly inspires me, brings me happiness,
and brings out once again the artist that lies within me.
Staying just a little farther back from the campfire than the rest,
'cause we know we can always just keep each other warm.
Her hand wrapped tightly around my own,
not wanting to let go... never wanting to lose grip.
My fingers running through her beautiful blonde hair
as we sit quietly together, anticipating what will happen next.
Going to our first dance together and getting to see her there,
after she's all dressed up and tried her best to look nice for me.
Knowing that its not even the way she is dressed thats what matters,
but she went out of her way to look even prettier than she already does.
Walking up behind her quietly, trying not to let her notice,
so I can wrap my arms around her and place my hands on hers.
Placing my hand softly upon her cheek, looking deeply into her eyes,
and moving in for that first kiss I know we've both been waiting for.
Finally having her there to hold tightly within in my arms,
looking down into her eyes, and telling her that I'm all hers.
Currently listening :
Suicide Notes & Butterfly Kisses
By Atreyu
Release date: By 26 April, 2005
5:59 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment
BACK TO EL:
I'm hypocritical here, maybe, yeah, I'm with Kevin, but I'm not being a douche about it, all uh, yeah, we wanna be all makey outy and cute and happy and perfect and like in a little white cottage, bullshit.
Ryan seems to have gotten over me fast. one minute, he's all, OMG I'll wait for you, I'll tell Anna that I love you and can't be with her right now"
Then a few hours later "I think the best thing is for us to be apart, besides, I owe it to myself and Anna to see how it works.
That's fine with me, I'm great with Kevin, but it seems like Ryan is just leaving me in the dust. I don't think he has the mentallity for me to stay friends with him