night waves
so last night was the most fun i have had in a long time...well with a guy that is. haha Asa is so adorable. we went back to his house to drop off my car and he needed to change his shirt. then we went to michigan city for dinner at this chinese buffet house. it was really good. and we talked the whole way there, laughed, sang a little, even at dinner we could not stop talking and laughing at each other. it was just so much fun. then we really didnt know what to do so he asked if i had been out to the lighthouse, of course i havent. how sad i know. but anyways we went out there, yes it was night, yes it was cold, and yes the waves were huge! but it was all good. we walked all the way out to the light house trying not to get wet. and stopping to watch some waves crashing into the shore line and up against all the rocks and the dock we were standing on. i got to be close to him then, because it was cold and i was afraid i was gonna get blown away or wet from teh waves. it was just so amazing to be out there at night. all you could hear was the crashing of the waves. and of course us laughing and having a good ole time. then we walked back to the car and went back to his place because i had to be home by 1130. but we sat around for a little while at his place and talked. i met his mom, sorta his dad, and his brother. and then i had to go. i so badly did not want to leave. we were having so much fun. he wants me to get into the same bio class as him next semester, like schedule wise. then we would have calc and bio together. and he offered to help me with chem if i needed it. man i have the BIGGEST crush on him. i just hope soon he will ask me out officially or maybe it will just become a given. i dont know. we have so much in common and yet we are so different. it is just amazing. and im myself around him. i dont wear a mask like i have before. i dont hide the facts that my parents are overpowering and that i get stressed all the time, and that i dont have a life. i have told him all of those things. and not to make him feel sorry for me, i just want him to know. im trying not to get my hopes up too high, because i dont want to be hurt. but last night was just absolutely wonderful.