x. Poems .x
Here are a few poems that i wrote and wanted to keep in my journal. This entry will be made public for critque reasons.
A world obscene
Do not hurt me my friends
for this is what i have seen
tomorrow you will meet your end
listen here do not stray there
For this world is very obscene
they stick needles in your eyes
and those men they'll tell you mean mean lies
Boys hurt girls and girls sleep around for clothes
in this lost world
men beat up men and stab their friends
for this i have seen
this world is so very obscene
the old die alone
and the young cry alone
left to fend on their own
for i have seen this,
this world is so very obscene
now i ask you do not hurt me my friend
for your time will soon end
this is a world i have seen
it is so very very obscene
The Blade Left In Her Hand
So this is the night
i said to my self
i must give up this fight
she took the knife and brought it up to herself
to cut so deep to bleed so red
she closed her eyes and felt it press
against her neck she knew now just to lay in bed
soon she knew that this would be her final rest
she held the knife still shaking in her hand
she felt it's cold blade now scraping
against her wrist with no command
the blood was now escaping
soon it all grew dark
she screamed out loud
as she left the final mark
for noone to hear her broken vow
the night went on when she didnt awake
not for the phone call
or when the door did quake
people burst into the hall
for they knew she took her final fall
all around her they did stand
looking over her wondering why the blade was left in her hand
Daddy Hurt Me So
To pure to know it's wrong
daddy why do you have to be so strong
you hurt me bad as you push me down
hold me to the bed where my feet can't touch the ground
i scream and cry for mommy dear
but she's to scared to come near
she knows im sad and you're hurting me so
but mommy said that she had to go
we're all alone once more
ouch daddy what was that that tore
blood is pouring from my hole
i think you just broke my soul
i try to kick and to scream
but nothing but silence
that's all it seems
you punch me hard to shut me up
daddy your face looks so harsh
your eyes as dark as coal
i can feel my body giving way
i think you lost all control
please daddy the pain is much i cannot lie
to keep this up i'll surely die
the rape of innocents
of something so pure
daddy im only five
The Only Dad I Never Knew
You're not dead
you're not here
where are you ive cried so many tears
he hit me, he beat me
he raped me and tore me apart
daddy where were you all those years
who was going to protect me
from the ex i loved so much
you're my father and i love you
i use to run to you
we could hide and laugh
play all day long
then something happened
i realized it was all a dream
i used to pretend you were a good father
i used to lie to myself and my mother
everynight i would pray that
someday dad someday i could be your daughter
why did you leave me
why did you hurt mom
was it my fault that Jake left?
was it my fault you kicked him out
i didnt mean for him to hurt me
daddy i didnt mean for you to get mad
why did mom not let me see you
why didnt you try to see me?
you told me you loved me
everytime we hung up the phone
you told me you missed me
and blew me kisses so long ago
but where are they today
why werent you there when he made me cry
why arent you here to see how happy i am inside
ive become stronger dad
im not your little girl anymore ive grown up
ive lived a life ive made mistakes
and ive accomplished great things
where were you to see them dad
who will walk me down the aisle
on my wedding day
who will hold my arm and cry
because he has to give his little girl away
i can have fake daddys
mommys boyfriends and grandfathers too
but you're the only dad i want
the only dad i never knew.
A Leo's Insecurities
Inspire the world and,
you can run the show,
your the center of all that is,
attention but one bit is a little slow,
a Leo of courage and loyalty,
trust worthy and a friend,
But you lack one security,
the one thing you cannot hide,
Your loud and fun but inside,
you know that your not complete,
but only a half of what you are on the outside,
not a single smile is true, not one of your own,
you hide with fake happiness and laughs,
you run behind your jokes,
it's a hidden secret one that you cant,
let show, a weakness like no other,
your afraid of yourself,
to let it all unroll,
you put on a show so people will like you.
You know well enough that all you have,
is a sense of humor,
but the one thing you lack,
your one insecurity is the,
one thing that you cannot hide,
a Leo's pride is what you have,
to make everything OK again with laughs,
you face your fears you speak your mind,
you make you friends happy,
teach them to trust and love,
but dear Leo can you do this for yourself?
A world obscene
Do not hurt me my friends
for this is what i have seen
tomorrow you will meet your end
listen here do not stray there
For this world is very obscene
they stick needles in your eyes
and those men they'll tell you mean mean lies
Boys hurt girls and girls sleep around for clothes
in this lost world
men beat up men and stab their friends
for this i have seen
this world is so very obscene
the old die alone
and the young cry alone
left to fend on their own
for i have seen this,
this world is so very obscene
now i ask you do not hurt me my friend
for your time will soon end
this is a world i have seen
it is so very very obscene
The Blade Left In Her Hand
So this is the night
i said to my self
i must give up this fight
she took the knife and brought it up to herself
to cut so deep to bleed so red
she closed her eyes and felt it press
against her neck she knew now just to lay in bed
soon she knew that this would be her final rest
she held the knife still shaking in her hand
she felt it's cold blade now scraping
against her wrist with no command
the blood was now escaping
soon it all grew dark
she screamed out loud
as she left the final mark
for noone to hear her broken vow
the night went on when she didnt awake
not for the phone call
or when the door did quake
people burst into the hall
for they knew she took her final fall
all around her they did stand
looking over her wondering why the blade was left in her hand
Daddy Hurt Me So
To pure to know it's wrong
daddy why do you have to be so strong
you hurt me bad as you push me down
hold me to the bed where my feet can't touch the ground
i scream and cry for mommy dear
but she's to scared to come near
she knows im sad and you're hurting me so
but mommy said that she had to go
we're all alone once more
ouch daddy what was that that tore
blood is pouring from my hole
i think you just broke my soul
i try to kick and to scream
but nothing but silence
that's all it seems
you punch me hard to shut me up
daddy your face looks so harsh
your eyes as dark as coal
i can feel my body giving way
i think you lost all control
please daddy the pain is much i cannot lie
to keep this up i'll surely die
the rape of innocents
of something so pure
daddy im only five
The Only Dad I Never Knew
You're not dead
you're not here
where are you ive cried so many tears
he hit me, he beat me
he raped me and tore me apart
daddy where were you all those years
who was going to protect me
from the ex i loved so much
you're my father and i love you
i use to run to you
we could hide and laugh
play all day long
then something happened
i realized it was all a dream
i used to pretend you were a good father
i used to lie to myself and my mother
everynight i would pray that
someday dad someday i could be your daughter
why did you leave me
why did you hurt mom
was it my fault that Jake left?
was it my fault you kicked him out
i didnt mean for him to hurt me
daddy i didnt mean for you to get mad
why did mom not let me see you
why didnt you try to see me?
you told me you loved me
everytime we hung up the phone
you told me you missed me
and blew me kisses so long ago
but where are they today
why werent you there when he made me cry
why arent you here to see how happy i am inside
ive become stronger dad
im not your little girl anymore ive grown up
ive lived a life ive made mistakes
and ive accomplished great things
where were you to see them dad
who will walk me down the aisle
on my wedding day
who will hold my arm and cry
because he has to give his little girl away
i can have fake daddys
mommys boyfriends and grandfathers too
but you're the only dad i want
the only dad i never knew.
A Leo's Insecurities
Inspire the world and,
you can run the show,
your the center of all that is,
attention but one bit is a little slow,
a Leo of courage and loyalty,
trust worthy and a friend,
But you lack one security,
the one thing you cannot hide,
Your loud and fun but inside,
you know that your not complete,
but only a half of what you are on the outside,
not a single smile is true, not one of your own,
you hide with fake happiness and laughs,
you run behind your jokes,
it's a hidden secret one that you cant,
let show, a weakness like no other,
your afraid of yourself,
to let it all unroll,
you put on a show so people will like you.
You know well enough that all you have,
is a sense of humor,
but the one thing you lack,
your one insecurity is the,
one thing that you cannot hide,
a Leo's pride is what you have,
to make everything OK again with laughs,
you face your fears you speak your mind,
you make you friends happy,
teach them to trust and love,
but dear Leo can you do this for yourself?