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"I'm just tired, we were up late talking last night."
"About? Tell me. Tell me."
"After highschool, we're all kinda scared of whats going to happen. Well, I'm scared shitless."
"Why?"
"No idea what Im doing, where I'm going, anything."
"Well, what if I had plans for you?"
"I don't know. Do you actually think that could happen though?"
"I want it to."
-later-
"Damn, I cant believe I said that."
"I know me neither, you didn't studder."
"Yeah, well that should tell you something."
oh God I love him.
so, I feel stupid for getting so happy he said that. He meant it. I know he did for a fact. But, last time I got caught up in thinking about having a future with someone that was what screwed with my head the most when it ended. So I just dont know. I told Dean before that when I was younger I was the kind of kid that ran around with scissors their hand as fast as they could not careing that they could seriously get hurt . I also said I was the same with relationships. Knowing that I could get hurt I take things pretty fast. But after falling and stabbing my eye with scissors once who can blame me for hesitateing? Or is it a good thing that I'm a little hesitant about getting high hopes? gah.