you totally don't have to read this, it's just something i needed to get off my chest.
i wish heroin would fucking rot in hell.
if i had it my way, i would so totally murder it so that it never ever ever came back again.
it's so ridiculously sad when the people you love and care about so much are taken and eaten alive by something so fucking stupid.
it eats me alive from the inside out.
it rips my fucking heart out.
FUCKING YFDOAJFKDALJFDAYHREIWQOJHFKLDSAJKFAD!
i absolutely am totally infatuated by this boy. he's the most amazing boy ever. and we go together perfect. fucking perfect. but i can't be with someone who does stupid things like that. i am so torn apart and it's the most horrible, confusing feeling in the whole world.
i was pretty naive i guess in thinking that he really wouldn't go back to it, after all the bullshit he went through, but he did. i wish he didn't, i so wish he didnt.
like sarah said, heroin has an evil control over people.
hopefully i will be able to wake my sugar baby up and make him stop.
but i know its not that easy.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, god.
i'm gonna see how things go.
but if it continues, i'm gonna have to be a strong person and just take myself away.
addiction runs in my family like no other. just about everyone in my family has been addicted to something.
dad's an alcoholic.
my aunt used to sell her body for heroin. she left her fucking kids and sold her car, for dope.
my other aunt overdosed at the age 25 and died. she needed a new liver, but who would donate to a fucking alcoholic, dope addict.
my other aunt is an alcoholic.
my great uncle is an alcoholic.
etc.. hopefully you get the point.
it hurts like no other.
because i think i'm falling in love with this boy.
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if i had it my way, i would so totally murder it so that it never ever ever came back again.
it's so ridiculously sad when the people you love and care about so much are taken and eaten alive by something so fucking stupid.
it eats me alive from the inside out.
it rips my fucking heart out.
FUCKING YFDOAJFKDALJFDAYHREIWQOJHFKLDSAJKFAD!
i absolutely am totally infatuated by this boy. he's the most amazing boy ever. and we go together perfect. fucking perfect. but i can't be with someone who does stupid things like that. i am so torn apart and it's the most horrible, confusing feeling in the whole world.
i was pretty naive i guess in thinking that he really wouldn't go back to it, after all the bullshit he went through, but he did. i wish he didn't, i so wish he didnt.
like sarah said, heroin has an evil control over people.
hopefully i will be able to wake my sugar baby up and make him stop.
but i know its not that easy.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, god.
i'm gonna see how things go.
but if it continues, i'm gonna have to be a strong person and just take myself away.
addiction runs in my family like no other. just about everyone in my family has been addicted to something.
dad's an alcoholic.
my aunt used to sell her body for heroin. she left her fucking kids and sold her car, for dope.
my other aunt overdosed at the age 25 and died. she needed a new liver, but who would donate to a fucking alcoholic, dope addict.
my other aunt is an alcoholic.
my great uncle is an alcoholic.
etc.. hopefully you get the point.
it hurts like no other.
because i think i'm falling in love with this boy.
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