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im in the mood to write. im not sure why.
things are going really well with me right now. ive been talking with tony a lot more, and that makes me really happy. like yesterday we talked all together for like six hours. which also accounts for pretty much all the time that he was awake. sure makes me feel special. which i do. feel special. okay.
otherwise things are good! chronicles of narnia come out on friday and i have to find someone who isnt julian who will come with me. i wonder how long i can avoid him for. god.. its just that the only reason that he wants to see me is so he can have sex with me, and those arent enough grounds to warrant my presence. im not trying to make myself seem like a queen, but if thats the only reason that someone wants to see me then FUCK THEM!
on another note, im going to the dominican republic in eighteen days and it makes me happy happy joy joy. it upsets me that im going to be on a plane right over midnite (ill be on it from 10 pm until 2:30 am), but when i spoke about it to tony during one of our extensive conversations yesterday and he said that it didnt matter, i remembered how new years eve doesnt even mean anythin to him, so why should i be taking it so seriously that i want to see him? besides, he said that he's gonna be working at the club that nite, so i figure when i get home i will call him and see if he's going out to guvernment or someplace after work, and if he is then i'll go meet up with him. he'll still be at work when i get home at like four am. i think thats the best plan. besides, i think it will be good for him to go a week without talking to me at all. especially at this rate.. i mean, if we start talking again like all the time and then all of the sudden im gone, then its a good thing because maybe he'll realize how much he missed me!
this is really bad. i slept through my tutorial today. i saw the alarm clock, i really did... but i pulled the blankets over my head and went to sleep.
so because i love my friends and because its time that i did shout outs to those who sometimes read this...
RACH- everything is gonna be fine. YOURE gonna be fine. you know it girl! so go to hawaii, have a good time, and just forget about it. you know that youre worth more than that, and you know that you deserve something real. dont let it get you down. everything is a learning experience, and its better to have all the pain now than in twenty years when it might be with someone you actually like.
JESS- oh pooter. good luck with your surgery! you know that i dont really care if the boys make it up or not, and worse comes to worse i will get a lift from the parentals somehow. dont worry tho, i'll make it up. with cookies. and LOVE! LOVE FOR YOU! and its gonna be fine. just dont complain to your parents about it hurting or bothering you or anything- like always just seem really happy over getting it- and then they will be happier rather than sadder about it too.
mmm... no one else reads this. and if you do and want some love, let me know and i'll see what i can do. so on that note, its shower/breakfast time.
things are going really well with me right now. ive been talking with tony a lot more, and that makes me really happy. like yesterday we talked all together for like six hours. which also accounts for pretty much all the time that he was awake. sure makes me feel special. which i do. feel special. okay.
otherwise things are good! chronicles of narnia come out on friday and i have to find someone who isnt julian who will come with me. i wonder how long i can avoid him for. god.. its just that the only reason that he wants to see me is so he can have sex with me, and those arent enough grounds to warrant my presence. im not trying to make myself seem like a queen, but if thats the only reason that someone wants to see me then FUCK THEM!
on another note, im going to the dominican republic in eighteen days and it makes me happy happy joy joy. it upsets me that im going to be on a plane right over midnite (ill be on it from 10 pm until 2:30 am), but when i spoke about it to tony during one of our extensive conversations yesterday and he said that it didnt matter, i remembered how new years eve doesnt even mean anythin to him, so why should i be taking it so seriously that i want to see him? besides, he said that he's gonna be working at the club that nite, so i figure when i get home i will call him and see if he's going out to guvernment or someplace after work, and if he is then i'll go meet up with him. he'll still be at work when i get home at like four am. i think thats the best plan. besides, i think it will be good for him to go a week without talking to me at all. especially at this rate.. i mean, if we start talking again like all the time and then all of the sudden im gone, then its a good thing because maybe he'll realize how much he missed me!
this is really bad. i slept through my tutorial today. i saw the alarm clock, i really did... but i pulled the blankets over my head and went to sleep.
so because i love my friends and because its time that i did shout outs to those who sometimes read this...
RACH- everything is gonna be fine. YOURE gonna be fine. you know it girl! so go to hawaii, have a good time, and just forget about it. you know that youre worth more than that, and you know that you deserve something real. dont let it get you down. everything is a learning experience, and its better to have all the pain now than in twenty years when it might be with someone you actually like.
JESS- oh pooter. good luck with your surgery! you know that i dont really care if the boys make it up or not, and worse comes to worse i will get a lift from the parentals somehow. dont worry tho, i'll make it up. with cookies. and LOVE! LOVE FOR YOU! and its gonna be fine. just dont complain to your parents about it hurting or bothering you or anything- like always just seem really happy over getting it- and then they will be happier rather than sadder about it too.
mmm... no one else reads this. and if you do and want some love, let me know and i'll see what i can do. so on that note, its shower/breakfast time.