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[x_vintagerckr_x]

Today was fun, untill i got the news that Tess is now home, and not for long. I am filled with so much sadness, and i dont know how to deal with it. It pains me so much that Brooke has to go through it. I feel so sad. Its all so unfair. Why does she have to go? She never did anything to hurt anyone, and its just not fair. I went out to subway and was on the verge of tears all the way there and home, and i drove by Brookes house, and the the tears flowed like never before. I have never had so much sadness for anyone. I had no idea. and i wish had, i tried my hardess whn i got home to turn back and go there, and just visit. but its not my place, it hasnt been for years. but it feels like home. so i just naturally sat in the driveway and cried. I want to write a letter to Brooke, but i feel awkward. would she critisize me for not being there for her? If i have to go to a funeral for Tess, I wont know what to do. Its so unfair.

it should be someone else, or no one else. it should be me. it could be carrie, or lindsay. Its no fair Brooke has to be an only child.

Life is so Unfair.