I'm at a crossroads...
I need advice. Major advice.
So like... I've been hanging out with this girl, Erika, for the past few months. We chill, watch movies, talk, sometimes we go out to dinner or on a picnic. It's fun. (: I've never really though about what we were, as far as an "item" or what, because we just never really talk about it. Sounds great, huh? I wish it was that simple... Erika has leukemia. And it's not looking good. I met her at the hospital a couple months ago on a trip to see the new-born baby of a friend (of a friend). I ended up walking around and sat down right next to her on a bench when I was tired. We started talking, well, I started talking... But she eventually opened up and started telling me about what's happening, etc, etc.
I kept going back to see her until she got released, and we got close, she opened up more to me and one day I asked why she wasn't on chemo(therapy) and she said to me, "The doctors in Houston said it wouldn't matter if I was on chemo, or not. They said that the chemo would just kill me faster." (She could have worded it differently -.-) Yeah. She's only expected to last until April or May, if that.
So I hung out with her all the time, left for Christmas, came back an met another girl. Cathrine. She's a friend of my cousin's girlfriend, and she's pretty cute, at that. We've hung out a couple of times, and apparently she 'likes' me. In fact we went on a double date with the cousin and g/f the other night. Had fun, but I dunno...
I could stick with Erika and like... Stay as close as I am with her until April/May when she goes and I cry like a little bitch for a week. Or I could treat Erika more like a friend, and try to start something with Cathrine... But then I could hurt Erika as I get the feeling she has something for me too, but I dunno. -.- Also I don't want to be like... Waiting for her to go so I can try to start something with Cat. So... Should I just forget about Cathrine for now? That's what I'm thinking, but yeah... Advice? |:
So like... I've been hanging out with this girl, Erika, for the past few months. We chill, watch movies, talk, sometimes we go out to dinner or on a picnic. It's fun. (: I've never really though about what we were, as far as an "item" or what, because we just never really talk about it. Sounds great, huh? I wish it was that simple... Erika has leukemia. And it's not looking good. I met her at the hospital a couple months ago on a trip to see the new-born baby of a friend (of a friend). I ended up walking around and sat down right next to her on a bench when I was tired. We started talking, well, I started talking... But she eventually opened up and started telling me about what's happening, etc, etc.
I kept going back to see her until she got released, and we got close, she opened up more to me and one day I asked why she wasn't on chemo(therapy) and she said to me, "The doctors in Houston said it wouldn't matter if I was on chemo, or not. They said that the chemo would just kill me faster." (She could have worded it differently -.-) Yeah. She's only expected to last until April or May, if that.
So I hung out with her all the time, left for Christmas, came back an met another girl. Cathrine. She's a friend of my cousin's girlfriend, and she's pretty cute, at that. We've hung out a couple of times, and apparently she 'likes' me. In fact we went on a double date with the cousin and g/f the other night. Had fun, but I dunno...
I could stick with Erika and like... Stay as close as I am with her until April/May when she goes and I cry like a little bitch for a week. Or I could treat Erika more like a friend, and try to start something with Cathrine... But then I could hurt Erika as I get the feeling she has something for me too, but I dunno. -.- Also I don't want to be like... Waiting for her to go so I can try to start something with Cat. So... Should I just forget about Cathrine for now? That's what I'm thinking, but yeah... Advice? |: