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just got out of lock up. i was in eddison for two weeks. it really wasny as bad as how i thought it would be. but its not a place id like to spend my life. i was send there for.. teft, receving stolen property, and possession of a weapon. what really happened though... dave jackASS went into the terachers purse, took 26 bucks and gave me the 20. later he ratted me out, saying i went into the purse. so the teacher pressed charges on me. and when i was searched, there was a razor blade knife thinger in my purse. i didnt even know it was in there. oh well whatever. its all over with now, im home.. id like to say im happy. but i dont knoe.
i dont know whats going on in this head of mine., im so confused. about everything. i have like.. no feelings left inside of me anymore., im so.. numb. when i got to eddison i felt nothing, when i got home, i felt nothing. sure i was happy and all getting out, but then the happyiness soon went away back into this confused numb stage. i dunno. im so lost. i dont know what to do with myself.
but im done with everything if that helps any. the stealing, the drugs, the stupid shit... everything, im done. im a new heather..
but right now im all desressed and crap so yeah. blah. go away.
i met a girl in lock up. jena. shes someone im going to miss. she told me.. before i left.. that she has fallen into love with me. aww. jena. shell be in there till january then to a group home.. =/ so i wont be seeing her anytime soon. itll suck. but well write eachtoether.
wow.. i should be happy right now, im out. i could have been there for .. ever. well l till like june. butim out now. and i just.. feel like going back.
im over nicks. ill write when i get home. ...
i dont know whats going on in this head of mine., im so confused. about everything. i have like.. no feelings left inside of me anymore., im so.. numb. when i got to eddison i felt nothing, when i got home, i felt nothing. sure i was happy and all getting out, but then the happyiness soon went away back into this confused numb stage. i dunno. im so lost. i dont know what to do with myself.
but im done with everything if that helps any. the stealing, the drugs, the stupid shit... everything, im done. im a new heather..
but right now im all desressed and crap so yeah. blah. go away.
i met a girl in lock up. jena. shes someone im going to miss. she told me.. before i left.. that she has fallen into love with me. aww. jena. shell be in there till january then to a group home.. =/ so i wont be seeing her anytime soon. itll suck. but well write eachtoether.
wow.. i should be happy right now, im out. i could have been there for .. ever. well l till like june. butim out now. and i just.. feel like going back.
im over nicks. ill write when i get home. ...