You Don't What You've Got 'Til It's Gone
I would be lying if I said I wasn't upset that Father Geno was leaving. Of course, I would be lying if I said I was not disappointed with him over this year. And I would be lying if I said I was very close to him.
The truth is, I never really got a long with him as well as others, but over the junipr retreat I felt a change for him. I began to change my view about him. I felt that I could trust him and I even wanted to tell him how I felt about everything. Not what I did, but just what I felt. I wanted to tell someone that sometime in my life I can feel down and dumb. I wanted to know that there were people who cared for me. For the week after that I wished that I could tell him. But then things started to get better and ignored the problem. But now I know that he is leaving I feel like I have hurt him. I know I should not feel this way about loosing him and I know I may be blowing this out of proportion and I may loose some friends because of this, but it must be said. Now that I know he is leaving I am only now appreciating him. Like the saying, you don't know what you've got until it is gone...
But I should be used to this. During my 7th grade year my principal left teh school and then the school went down hill. It was one of the best, now it is one of the worst. But I guess father geno is closer to me, although I am not sure he even knows me...I feel this closeness to him and that is because of the Junior Retreat.
I guess Father Geno will turn into one of those people who took my trust, whether they knew it or not, and took it away or took advantage of it. Why I even give my trust to people I still don't know.
I know I am too sensitive for my own good. I know I should not be crying. But I am. I am a fucking moron...I think the only people who are crying are the ones close to him, and I am not one of them. I swear...I AM FUCKED UP!
I know I am a hypocrate...my brother even told me that.
But I am sorry and I don't want him to go.
I am sorry if my other friends don't care...but I do.
I don't care if people make fun of me because I cried...I'll try to live with that.
I don't care if I lose friends or if people see me differently...trust me...I never expected to feel this way...
I just do
Side Note: We better not have school tomorrow. I don't feel like doing my morality essay and studing for that test.
The truth is, I never really got a long with him as well as others, but over the junipr retreat I felt a change for him. I began to change my view about him. I felt that I could trust him and I even wanted to tell him how I felt about everything. Not what I did, but just what I felt. I wanted to tell someone that sometime in my life I can feel down and dumb. I wanted to know that there were people who cared for me. For the week after that I wished that I could tell him. But then things started to get better and ignored the problem. But now I know that he is leaving I feel like I have hurt him. I know I should not feel this way about loosing him and I know I may be blowing this out of proportion and I may loose some friends because of this, but it must be said. Now that I know he is leaving I am only now appreciating him. Like the saying, you don't know what you've got until it is gone...
But I should be used to this. During my 7th grade year my principal left teh school and then the school went down hill. It was one of the best, now it is one of the worst. But I guess father geno is closer to me, although I am not sure he even knows me...I feel this closeness to him and that is because of the Junior Retreat.
I guess Father Geno will turn into one of those people who took my trust, whether they knew it or not, and took it away or took advantage of it. Why I even give my trust to people I still don't know.
I know I am too sensitive for my own good. I know I should not be crying. But I am. I am a fucking moron...I think the only people who are crying are the ones close to him, and I am not one of them. I swear...I AM FUCKED UP!
I know I am a hypocrate...my brother even told me that.
But I am sorry and I don't want him to go.
I am sorry if my other friends don't care...but I do.
I don't care if people make fun of me because I cried...I'll try to live with that.
I don't care if I lose friends or if people see me differently...trust me...I never expected to feel this way...
I just do
Side Note: We better not have school tomorrow. I don't feel like doing my morality essay and studing for that test.