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ever get that urge to just take a knife and slice yourself up?
NOT in a suicidal manner...
NOT b/c of depression..
and definitely NOT for attention..

but just so you FEEL something new...FEEL alive?

That's what I get a lot.
And I really wish I could do it...
Just carve a giant X across my chest..
watch the blood flow down in tiny rivers.
feel the burn of your skin ripping and separating.

make me feel alive.