Feb 13, 2005 18:57
so let me tell you what it feels like:
its as if your heart's become this venomous object in your body and all of your organs and muscles are contracting trying to push it out. Your entire body is rejecting this stranger that your heart has become because its only function now is to inflict pain upon you. your heart is no longer the central source of life it once was because its been poisoned and now instead its killing you. no matter what you do, no matter how hard you cry it wont cleanse itself. This is your body failing you, this is your immune system shutting down and saying "deal with it" This is what it feels like to be tainted, and abandoned. your heart isnt as strong as you thought it was.
so this is me waiting for the rest of my body to either join my heart and play dead or revive itself
Baby, help me feel something pure again, i dont know what else to do.