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so,
there goes grade 12.
It was over just as fast as it came.
Now we're writing our exams and getting ready for university or college, or whatever we decide to do.
I dont get to fuuulllyyy appericiate the whole graduation thing. I have to stay back another semester to get my diploma.And i mean, i guess i'm ok with that, eventhough its not really like i have a choice. I made mistakes in my grade 9 and 10 years, i failed too many classes and now i have to pay for it.
Alot of my friends are moving out of windsor in the summer, and some have already left. This leaves me behind, but this gives me a better chance to focus on school and getting a job so i can save up and move out in january.
thinking about my future actually scares me. moving out, leaving my family, going to school, getting a full time job to support myself. All i know i want is to go to Ryerson for photography, and find a job with bands doing photography. I dont even know if i want to get married or have kids. I dont know if i want to live in a big house, or an apartment or on my moms couch. All i know is im going to be a photographer.
I think the one thing that scares me more then thinking about my own future is thinking about my brothers. Hes in the reserves and he goes away alot, that doesnt bother me. But when he brought home a will to fill out because hes going to Afganistan.... i didnt even know what to think.
the thought of loosing my brother, and knowing that theres nothing i can do to change his mind, breaks my heart. This is what he has always wanted, for as long as i can remember. He used to run around our backyard when we were little, pretending to be in the war, and id play along with him. Theres already been 60 canadian soldiers killed, i dont want it to be 61.
there goes grade 12.
It was over just as fast as it came.
Now we're writing our exams and getting ready for university or college, or whatever we decide to do.
I dont get to fuuulllyyy appericiate the whole graduation thing. I have to stay back another semester to get my diploma.And i mean, i guess i'm ok with that, eventhough its not really like i have a choice. I made mistakes in my grade 9 and 10 years, i failed too many classes and now i have to pay for it.
Alot of my friends are moving out of windsor in the summer, and some have already left. This leaves me behind, but this gives me a better chance to focus on school and getting a job so i can save up and move out in january.
thinking about my future actually scares me. moving out, leaving my family, going to school, getting a full time job to support myself. All i know i want is to go to Ryerson for photography, and find a job with bands doing photography. I dont even know if i want to get married or have kids. I dont know if i want to live in a big house, or an apartment or on my moms couch. All i know is im going to be a photographer.
I think the one thing that scares me more then thinking about my own future is thinking about my brothers. Hes in the reserves and he goes away alot, that doesnt bother me. But when he brought home a will to fill out because hes going to Afganistan.... i didnt even know what to think.
the thought of loosing my brother, and knowing that theres nothing i can do to change his mind, breaks my heart. This is what he has always wanted, for as long as i can remember. He used to run around our backyard when we were little, pretending to be in the war, and id play along with him. Theres already been 60 canadian soldiers killed, i dont want it to be 61.