what a sad day. .
well today after school i stayed home till like five then i went to the town houses and hung out with amila. we ran into kyle and brett and we talked to them for like 5 minutes then me and amile hung out till like 7:20,
then i went to kyles house and i rang the doorbell and he was gone and so was his mom so i sat down and as soon as i did i just started bawling out tears, idk why i like just did, i geuss i was just remembering a ton of thoughts between me and kyle. but i did. then i saw his moms car (that he was in
) car pull in to the court so i made it look like(it was like 8:00 at the time), oh i just got back from being with amila and i was seeing if you were there and i wasnt crying or nothing, so me and him talked for a few minutes and then he went inside to go eat and the whole way home i cryed, like i was thinking wat amilas friend said "what happens if it was *this person*(she metioned a name but in not saying it and this person was really close to amila) instead of haase" then i thought well kyles really special to me and if i lost him i-i-i just couldn't go on. . idk how id would deal with it.
so i came home and here i am typing this and i cant feel anything with my finger cuz there SOO numb.
and im gonna listen to some music and maybe cry some more :\. ill probably listen to "wake me up when september ends" like even tho its almost over i just want september to end. . cuz i hate it. . alot.
well im outta here
byebyez
<3 Laura
*My Screwed Up Mixed Feelings*
I Love Kyle *kisses and hugs*
then i went to kyles house and i rang the doorbell and he was gone and so was his mom so i sat down and as soon as i did i just started bawling out tears, idk why i like just did, i geuss i was just remembering a ton of thoughts between me and kyle. but i did. then i saw his moms car (that he was in
) car pull in to the court so i made it look like(it was like 8:00 at the time), oh i just got back from being with amila and i was seeing if you were there and i wasnt crying or nothing, so me and him talked for a few minutes and then he went inside to go eat and the whole way home i cryed, like i was thinking wat amilas friend said "what happens if it was *this person*(she metioned a name but in not saying it and this person was really close to amila) instead of haase" then i thought well kyles really special to me and if i lost him i-i-i just couldn't go on. . idk how id would deal with it.
so i came home and here i am typing this and i cant feel anything with my finger cuz there SOO numb.
and im gonna listen to some music and maybe cry some more :\. ill probably listen to "wake me up when september ends" like even tho its almost over i just want september to end. . cuz i hate it. . alot.
well im outta here
byebyez
<3 Laura
*My Screwed Up Mixed Feelings*
I Love Kyle *kisses and hugs*