Something I found which was written around easter. I can finally post it so here it is.
This is how I spent my Easter, ladies and gentlemen. Eating chocolate, playing Pokemon fire red and seeing just how pathetic some people can be.
Yes, I'm talking about you, and you know who you are. But what you don't want to know is who you really are. And that I find disappointing about you, yet also amusing. Because I see just how badly you continually shoot yourself in the foot whenever you try to be 'right'. Honey, you are not right. You are conceited. You are a coward. You are overly cynical. You show no respect or consideration for the person you claim to love. You don't trust her, you insult her on several occasions, you trap her with your exaggerated, imaginary standards you set for her, and you don't even acknowledge her as an equal.
And she agrees with me.
And the funny thing is, you KNOW what you said is bullshit. That's why you changed our final conversation when she asked you about it. You tried to make yourself look like the good guy, but all you did is fasten the noose around your neck by lying to her. And yes, I told her you lied. And I showed her proof. And she laughed and was appalled. And why wouldn't she be?
You know you're an idiot, I know you know. You know you say stupid things. Subconsciously, you are well aware. Why can't you ever be honest with yourself? Because you're afraid. You're a coward and you refuse to see it any different from your way. In your world, you are perfect. You're always right about everything. And you wont have it any other way. So many people disagree with so many things you say, not just me. What does that tell you? Nothing, because you don't listen. You only see your world. And in your world, you're right, everyone else is wrong. You claim you're a realist, but honey, all you are is arrogant.
I do wonder where you get these crazy ideas into your head. And you can't even back them up properly. Many times you have avoided my questions. We have already argued many times, but the last two times have ended in you pissing off. You said some of the STUPIDEST things to me, and they have left me baffled. I could hardly believe they were coming from you. It's a shame, I thought you were smart. I tried so hard to convince myself to ignore your ignorance and arrogance and just continue to be there for you as a friend. Instead you continue to act like a petulant child, and then you go to the lengths of backstabbing me and my girlfriend. And how unmanly of you, by the way. Since when do men act like children?
I feel so, so bad for the poor girl you're dating. She is going through so much shit in her life and all you're doing is piling more on top of it with your ignorance and disregard for her feelings. If only you would just listen to the things you say. But you don't, because you're afraid of your own imperfections. You're scared of being stupid. And you won't admit it to yourself. And anyone who disagrees with you is attacked and bitched about. When are you going to realize that no one is perfect? That you are not the perfection you set yourself up to be? Denying it and bitching about the people who challenge you doesn't make your perception of yourself any truer. It just makes you look more pathetic and laughable. And you make me laugh. Not in a good way.
And the way you also talk about the people on Haikyo is nothing short of sickening and ignorant.
You say Yumi is obsessed with tattoos and needs to seek help, Nee-chan is stupid and a wannabee gangster, and Sigma is a homo.
And by the way, WHO CARES IF NEE-CHAN VOTED FOR OBAMA? Such a petite thing does not give you the right to bitch about her the way you did. Just because she didn't agree with you it doesn't mean she's stupid. And just because you have some teensy grudge against her, even though it was your fault that you two fell apart, it doesn't mean your bitching has ground. And if your CYNICAL views say that Obama is just trying to put up an image of what people want to see, bla bla bla, tell us why you're so eager to support Mccain instead. No, instead you shoot down anyone who even thinks of supporting Obama, claiming that they're living in a dream world. Grow the fuck up man. Get over it and move on from this small little thing. Don't go throwing a tantrum over spilled water on grass. If people prefer Obama, so what? It's not like they're choosing Hitler. This is not even a topic worth arguing about. Grow up.
And then, you have the nerve to talk badly about me behind my back. Oh and yes, I know. Why do you think I haven't spoken to you in weeks? Because there would have been no way I would have been without bringing up the shit you said and get her into trouble. Now I don't actually care about the things you said about me, even though they were stupid as hell, but there was something else that irked the hell out of me.
You say I'm stubborn, insane, butting into peoples' lives, and should be concerned about my future and having kids.
Oh honey, I'm not the insane one around here. I am not the sexist, cynical control freak from the 1800s. But the reason I'm so stubborn, especially in our arguments about gender, is because your views on gender roles are pulled right out of the Victorian era. Get with the fucking times grandpa. "A girl should never correct a man." Do you know how disgusting that is? Absolutely no respect for your poor girl! Even a guy friend of mine said "the greatest way for a man to show a woman love is by giving her respect", which obviously you are too self centered to do.
And then you have the audacity to bring my girlfriend into this. THAT was the final straw. How DARE you talk about my girlfriend like that, someone who you have never met, first of all, and someone who has done NOTHING to you. And you go and say this: "her gf is bi and yearns for a guy to..."
Of course, both me, Mau and my girlfriend laughed our asses of at this, afterwards we were just disgusted. All three of us. That was what pissed me off, so congratulations. You just managed to make the last strike.
And you also ask me to mind my own business and not butt into your relationship with Mau. Well dear, you are the one who pulled me into the middle of it, whether I wanted to be there or not. You told me EVERYTHING that happened in your relationship with her, starting from the day it began to the last time we spoke. I never asked for info, except when you began telling me you were upset about something she did. Other times you just came up to me and started talking about the two of you, mostly about how angry you were at her. Mau also told me practically everything, so I'm nested in the middle of your relationship all the more. I was made to be the person who sees, hears and observes everything that goes on between you two, because of the two of you, but mostly you. Not her, you. And funny, I'm not the one who asks questions like the colour of peoples pubic hair or begs people for a pic of their girlfriend. You can't call me intrusive until you can look in the mirror and put that label upon yourself.
Ah but I forgot, you're too afraid of imperfection.
I so wanted to be a friend to you. Don't get me wrong. I appreciated that you managed to put up with me for so long though. I'm so many things you hate, yet you could still call me a good friend. That I have to say I appreciate. But as I continue to see who you really are underneath that image of a good friend, I'm losing my respectability for you. You stopped treating me like a friend simply because I was trying to reason with you. Then you back stab me and my girlfriend. Well done asswipe. Well done.
Why am I posting this on here? For everyone to see? Well, you wanted to fight me, so now I'm fighting back. You wanna be an asshole to me? You wanna hurt me? Well now it's my turn to be an asshole, and a bitch to you sweety. It's my turn to hurt you. And I can imagine that I most certainly must have. And unfortunately another reason for having to post it here was because telling you this over MSN would have been no use, as you would have signed off or blocked me as soon as I began my third sentence.
I can already see you blaming me. I'm the one who's wrong. I'm the one who's the enemy. And you're innocent. Right princess?
"Say Mel...
"They say you can't trust a man whose eyes are too close together. What do you think?"
I think I was wrong for encouraging him to ask you out in the first place.
I think I was wrong for not being able to hear your side of the story before his.
"Coz my only response is anger."
-Mello
Yes, I'm talking about you, and you know who you are. But what you don't want to know is who you really are. And that I find disappointing about you, yet also amusing. Because I see just how badly you continually shoot yourself in the foot whenever you try to be 'right'. Honey, you are not right. You are conceited. You are a coward. You are overly cynical. You show no respect or consideration for the person you claim to love. You don't trust her, you insult her on several occasions, you trap her with your exaggerated, imaginary standards you set for her, and you don't even acknowledge her as an equal.
And she agrees with me.
And the funny thing is, you KNOW what you said is bullshit. That's why you changed our final conversation when she asked you about it. You tried to make yourself look like the good guy, but all you did is fasten the noose around your neck by lying to her. And yes, I told her you lied. And I showed her proof. And she laughed and was appalled. And why wouldn't she be?
You know you're an idiot, I know you know. You know you say stupid things. Subconsciously, you are well aware. Why can't you ever be honest with yourself? Because you're afraid. You're a coward and you refuse to see it any different from your way. In your world, you are perfect. You're always right about everything. And you wont have it any other way. So many people disagree with so many things you say, not just me. What does that tell you? Nothing, because you don't listen. You only see your world. And in your world, you're right, everyone else is wrong. You claim you're a realist, but honey, all you are is arrogant.
I do wonder where you get these crazy ideas into your head. And you can't even back them up properly. Many times you have avoided my questions. We have already argued many times, but the last two times have ended in you pissing off. You said some of the STUPIDEST things to me, and they have left me baffled. I could hardly believe they were coming from you. It's a shame, I thought you were smart. I tried so hard to convince myself to ignore your ignorance and arrogance and just continue to be there for you as a friend. Instead you continue to act like a petulant child, and then you go to the lengths of backstabbing me and my girlfriend. And how unmanly of you, by the way. Since when do men act like children?
I feel so, so bad for the poor girl you're dating. She is going through so much shit in her life and all you're doing is piling more on top of it with your ignorance and disregard for her feelings. If only you would just listen to the things you say. But you don't, because you're afraid of your own imperfections. You're scared of being stupid. And you won't admit it to yourself. And anyone who disagrees with you is attacked and bitched about. When are you going to realize that no one is perfect? That you are not the perfection you set yourself up to be? Denying it and bitching about the people who challenge you doesn't make your perception of yourself any truer. It just makes you look more pathetic and laughable. And you make me laugh. Not in a good way.
And the way you also talk about the people on Haikyo is nothing short of sickening and ignorant.
You say Yumi is obsessed with tattoos and needs to seek help, Nee-chan is stupid and a wannabee gangster, and Sigma is a homo.
And by the way, WHO CARES IF NEE-CHAN VOTED FOR OBAMA? Such a petite thing does not give you the right to bitch about her the way you did. Just because she didn't agree with you it doesn't mean she's stupid. And just because you have some teensy grudge against her, even though it was your fault that you two fell apart, it doesn't mean your bitching has ground. And if your CYNICAL views say that Obama is just trying to put up an image of what people want to see, bla bla bla, tell us why you're so eager to support Mccain instead. No, instead you shoot down anyone who even thinks of supporting Obama, claiming that they're living in a dream world. Grow the fuck up man. Get over it and move on from this small little thing. Don't go throwing a tantrum over spilled water on grass. If people prefer Obama, so what? It's not like they're choosing Hitler. This is not even a topic worth arguing about. Grow up.
And then, you have the nerve to talk badly about me behind my back. Oh and yes, I know. Why do you think I haven't spoken to you in weeks? Because there would have been no way I would have been without bringing up the shit you said and get her into trouble. Now I don't actually care about the things you said about me, even though they were stupid as hell, but there was something else that irked the hell out of me.
You say I'm stubborn, insane, butting into peoples' lives, and should be concerned about my future and having kids.
Oh honey, I'm not the insane one around here. I am not the sexist, cynical control freak from the 1800s. But the reason I'm so stubborn, especially in our arguments about gender, is because your views on gender roles are pulled right out of the Victorian era. Get with the fucking times grandpa. "A girl should never correct a man." Do you know how disgusting that is? Absolutely no respect for your poor girl! Even a guy friend of mine said "the greatest way for a man to show a woman love is by giving her respect", which obviously you are too self centered to do.
And then you have the audacity to bring my girlfriend into this. THAT was the final straw. How DARE you talk about my girlfriend like that, someone who you have never met, first of all, and someone who has done NOTHING to you. And you go and say this: "her gf is bi and yearns for a guy to..."
Of course, both me, Mau and my girlfriend laughed our asses of at this, afterwards we were just disgusted. All three of us. That was what pissed me off, so congratulations. You just managed to make the last strike.
And you also ask me to mind my own business and not butt into your relationship with Mau. Well dear, you are the one who pulled me into the middle of it, whether I wanted to be there or not. You told me EVERYTHING that happened in your relationship with her, starting from the day it began to the last time we spoke. I never asked for info, except when you began telling me you were upset about something she did. Other times you just came up to me and started talking about the two of you, mostly about how angry you were at her. Mau also told me practically everything, so I'm nested in the middle of your relationship all the more. I was made to be the person who sees, hears and observes everything that goes on between you two, because of the two of you, but mostly you. Not her, you. And funny, I'm not the one who asks questions like the colour of peoples pubic hair or begs people for a pic of their girlfriend. You can't call me intrusive until you can look in the mirror and put that label upon yourself.
Ah but I forgot, you're too afraid of imperfection.
I so wanted to be a friend to you. Don't get me wrong. I appreciated that you managed to put up with me for so long though. I'm so many things you hate, yet you could still call me a good friend. That I have to say I appreciate. But as I continue to see who you really are underneath that image of a good friend, I'm losing my respectability for you. You stopped treating me like a friend simply because I was trying to reason with you. Then you back stab me and my girlfriend. Well done asswipe. Well done.
Why am I posting this on here? For everyone to see? Well, you wanted to fight me, so now I'm fighting back. You wanna be an asshole to me? You wanna hurt me? Well now it's my turn to be an asshole, and a bitch to you sweety. It's my turn to hurt you. And I can imagine that I most certainly must have. And unfortunately another reason for having to post it here was because telling you this over MSN would have been no use, as you would have signed off or blocked me as soon as I began my third sentence.
I can already see you blaming me. I'm the one who's wrong. I'm the one who's the enemy. And you're innocent. Right princess?
"Say Mel...
"They say you can't trust a man whose eyes are too close together. What do you think?"
I think I was wrong for encouraging him to ask you out in the first place.
I think I was wrong for not being able to hear your side of the story before his.
"Coz my only response is anger."
-Mello