My life sucks without you.
Damn, the end of 2008 was rather depressing for me :( Just looking back on how much I've regressed since last January. But instead of beating myself up and going over the mistakes I made over and over again, I'm making some drastic changes in my life. I'm not going to just be a screw up. I'm so much better than that. I have great potential and I am going to go somewhere in life. I've cut quite a few people out of my life, which is usually very hard for me. I just started thinking though, none of these people are even going to be around in my future [and that's what I'm trying to create right now] They should be worrying about their lives, but I can't control that. I want more for my life and only I can make that happen for myself. I will say I tryed a lot of new things and had some life experiences last year. But it most definitely was just that, experiences! Not the way I want to live my life.
I would like to make some new girl friends this year, I can't really tell you the last time I've had one of those. I do have Kassy [I love her, true best friend] But I've been so caught up, I don't remember the last we hungout either. I'm also looking for a job, a lot harder than I was before. I need to move back out of my parents house, I cannot handle living with my step-dad. It really does suck. I want to stop cursing, it's such a bad habit I've gotten into. I've cut back drastically and I'm working on not smoking ciggarettes. I want to get my GED and start looking at where I want to go to school. I wouldn't mind leaving this town, I'd actually much rather leave this town.
Well I guess that's enough rambling for now, that's all I've been thinking about for the past few days. But right now I'm sitting at JJ's house watching him play Rainbow Six on the Xbox 360 [I love that game] It's my turn when I get off of here. Have a goodnight everyone and anyone that read this.