stressed.
eck, i'm so stressed. Perhaps stressed isn't the best word to use- anxious, possibly? I'm not sure. I feel nauseous every time I think about college, i'm so paranoid that I won't be able to get in anywhere at all, I liked it much better when I didn't care about it at all. Amherst, definitely not- I scratched that idea, too much emphasis on standardized testing. Hampshire turned out to be disgusting. So far Appalachian seems to be the best choice, but going there (if I even get accepted) would mean that i'd have to be miles and miles away from Tyler- not that I think that it would work out anyway, but it could possibly work out, i'm afraid that i'll never know. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO OR WHERE I WANT TO GO OR IF I WANT TO STAY WITH TYLER OR IF I'M EVEN QUALIFIED ENOUGH TO GET IN ANYWHERE AT ALL. HDAJASKJAS.
i'm just so scared.
I wish I had somebody to make me feel better or to encourage me or to do anything at all.