A little bit of the past...
Today was a good day. Thank god.
Today one of my friends rode the bus, who hasn't riden the bus in a while. Me and him used to be really close friends but then shit happened and well we weren't exactly on speaking terms. Things are better now, like we are cool now, but we still don't talk as much as we used to. So today he rode the bus again. He is seriously one of the most genuinly sweet, unbeleivably smart, and amazing people i have ever met. And i talked to him about a bunch of shit thats been goiin on and it felt great to be able to talk to him and know that he wasn't judging me and or what i was saying. After everything that has been going on lately it was the most amazing feeling in the world to just be able to talk to him and sit there with him talking to him just like old times. Sometimes you need a little bit of true happiness at this moment and that will make up for all the unhappiness of a thousand minutes, even if its for that one moment. So sitting there just leaning my head on his shoulder and talking to him really made me realize some things about everything thats been going on lately. Now this guy... i am not gonna be a hypocryte and say i never liked him cuz i did A LOT but there are a lot of complications with the situation and thats okay i guess. I think.. that a reminder of how things used to be can help make okay the things going on now, it really made me happy even if it was for those 15 minutes i was on the bus. I realize how i feel about things. Leaning my head on him today was the most calming, and happy feeling i have had in a long time, and it was a good refreshment from the past ... weeks i guess i could say. I really miss him (this guy) and i am happy that things are okay now. Maybe a little bit of the past can overshadow the bad things happening in the present. So... who i've been writing about... you know who you are and if you read this... thanks, because you really helped me and mean more to me than you probably know.
x3 dayana
p.s. I am 99% there in figuring things out. I am 99% of the way to being happy.
p.s. About the song *lovers and friends* maybe sometimes its all you need
I guess all i can say... don't go searching for something you may not need right now. Because who knows?
maybe if you wait you will find something that is 10 times better, and it will be the right time for it. It took me a long time
for me to figure this out.