You were right; the angst is strong in this one, Luke.
Well, I think part of it stemmed from my own desire to see Dean actually *deal* with the aftermath of what Jo said - how that impacted not only his perception of John but how that spiraled out of control into his perception of self. It almost seemed glossed over by the time "The Usual Suspects" rolled around, so I tried to address it in the GS 'verse with something that was suitably cathartic.
Penny, man. Oh, Penny. What did you do to yourself, girlie.
I was worried that this story was too Penny-centric on a lot of levels - between Dean specifically going against Winchester MO to be with her and the revelations of her past - but I do think the background was necessary for Dean to make the realizations about himself that he did. She's his mirror in a lot of ways and I really wanted to show how her experience resonates with his, even though he's absolutely convinced that they're from two different worlds.
That sense of connection between them was pretty much the whole point of this story, which may have been too long and rather self-indulgent but...it'd been a long time since I wrote them and Penny really *doesn't* like being ignored for three months. It certainly wasn't the happy go lucky "I'm tying you up for Christmas" fic I *intended* to write because it was Christmas in July.
*weeps*
I really enjoy how you work out your OFCs, 'cause it almost never happens that I read an SPN story in which I find myself loving and rooting for characters whose last names aren't Winchester. And it usually only ever happens with OCs when they're ones YOU have brought to life.
*is blushing*
And geez, that bondage scene, B.
Well, there are two big issues with that scene. The first? I have a personal squick against knives, so that scene was alternately terrifying and somewhat liberating to write. The second, though, was Dean's confession at the end. It's such a cliche to have a character utter something like that in the situation they were in but it just seemed like Dean to say it under those exact circumstances.
I think my biggest concern with this story - well, with the whole series and anything I write - is to make the characters' reactions psychologically valid. This one touched on darker, deep-seated issues that I don't usually address in fic (least of all, you know, in what is supposed to be my "happy 'verse") so I'm glad it's working for folks.
And hoping like hell that people accept my longer story as amends for not writing Dean and Penny for three months. I definitely need to get back on the stick regarding the 'verse. They're filming Season 3 now. ;-P
Well, I think part of it stemmed from my own desire to see Dean actually *deal* with the aftermath of what Jo said - how that impacted not only his perception of John but how that spiraled out of control into his perception of self. It almost seemed glossed over by the time "The Usual Suspects" rolled around, so I tried to address it in the GS 'verse with something that was suitably cathartic.
Penny, man. Oh, Penny. What did you do to yourself, girlie.
I was worried that this story was too Penny-centric on a lot of levels - between Dean specifically going against Winchester MO to be with her and the revelations of her past - but I do think the background was necessary for Dean to make the realizations about himself that he did. She's his mirror in a lot of ways and I really wanted to show how her experience resonates with his, even though he's absolutely convinced that they're from two different worlds.
That sense of connection between them was pretty much the whole point of this story, which may have been too long and rather self-indulgent but...it'd been a long time since I wrote them and Penny really *doesn't* like being ignored for three months. It certainly wasn't the happy go lucky "I'm tying you up for Christmas" fic I *intended* to write because it was Christmas in July.
*weeps*
I really enjoy how you work out your OFCs, 'cause it almost never happens that I read an SPN story in which I find myself loving and rooting for characters whose last names aren't Winchester. And it usually only ever happens with OCs when they're ones YOU have brought to life.
*is blushing*
And geez, that bondage scene, B.
Well, there are two big issues with that scene. The first? I have a personal squick against knives, so that scene was alternately terrifying and somewhat liberating to write. The second, though, was Dean's confession at the end. It's such a cliche to have a character utter something like that in the situation they were in but it just seemed like Dean to say it under those exact circumstances.
I think my biggest concern with this story - well, with the whole series and anything I write - is to make the characters' reactions psychologically valid. This one touched on darker, deep-seated issues that I don't usually address in fic (least of all, you know, in what is supposed to be my "happy 'verse") so I'm glad it's working for folks.
And hoping like hell that people accept my longer story as amends for not writing Dean and Penny for three months. I definitely need to get back on the stick regarding the 'verse. They're filming Season 3 now. ;-P
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